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VENT LYRICS YAYYY (will update) :3
TW!! Thoughts of death, self harm and really bad things!!" like bike ridingIt can be excitingBut I'm through with hidingYou're gonna think I'm crazySwallowing swords now, too bad I don't know howI'm juggling knives, ow!Three fingers that cost me""I'm tired of being what you want me to beFeeling so faithless, lost under the surfaceDon't know what you're expecting of mePut under the pressure of walking in your shoes""Do you ever get a little bit tired of life?Like you're not really happy, but you don't wanna dieLike you're hanging by a thread, but you gotta survive'Cause you gotta surviveLike your body's in the room, but you're not really thereLike you have empathy inside, but you don't really careLike you're fresh outta love, but it's been in the airAm I past repair?"" wanna rip out my intestinesThrow them in the seaI wanna raise the money to invest in plastic surgeryI wanna cover myself head to toeWith super sexy scarsCause I meanAren't you supposed to burn if you're a star? I want to be torn apart excruciatinglyI punish my bodyCause it's not good enough for meThe scary thoughts are spreading like a weedThe thoughts that say that I deserve to bleed""Cause we're so f***in' mean, we're so elitist, we're as f***ed as any churchAnd this bullsh*t West coast dogma has a higher f***in' net worthI bit the apple 'cause I loved you, and why would you lie?And then I realized that you're just as naïve as I amOh, you're so traumatized it makes me want to cry""One Black eye and bullet holesMom I've never been betterDirty hair and torn up clothesMom I'm so put togetherI tell the world that I'm fineWhile I dive into the fireInject myself till I'm full of lies""Lost my job and then my hopeI f***ing hate December LA's a graveyard for dreamsI buried mine six feet deepAnd now I'm drowning into the scene""Sitting at a tableThey wear suits and liesThey're shaking my handLucky I got blue eyes But they don't they see the kid who dreamed of this disguiseLately it's been hard for him to watch me cry Don't look in the mirrorOr I'll see what I hateI'll suck up my tearsCuz I think that I've gained weight""Regret what I've takenJust please god don't let me- Sleep for the momentMaybe sleep foreverAll I wantedWas to be remembered""I can't help but repeat myself "I know it's not your fault"Still lately I begin to shake for no reason at allFor no reason at allFor no reason at allFor no reason at allFor no reason at all""I'm leaving, Phil, I'm leaving nowI'm going to escape but you won't know howOr where to find me when I'm goneI'd drink myself to death inside""Tobi tells me lies when I'm sleep-deprivedTobi says that I'm the worst of my kindThe voice that trails behind makes me petrifiedThinking I won't live to see twenty-five""The sun is fun, the land is dandyI only talk to dogs because they don't understand meMy teeth are yellow, hello worldWould you like me a little better if they were white like yours?I need to purge my urgesShame, shame, shame on youAlibi to justify, somebody to blameIt's a halibut, party bitch, give it a name and sayHey, hey""If I said I moved on (Moved on, moved on)If I said I'm fine, that'd be a lie, f***You're stuck on my mindIt doesn't get better, you turned off the lightsYou left me a letter, but that won't sufficeMemories like leather, they last a whole lifeI'll never get rid of them, trust me, I've tried You left a hole right inside my ribcageChemicals, the only way to escapeNumb, I'm so f***in' numbI've hit a wallNothing's been the same"Time heals all"Then why do I still feel so numb?I'm so f***in' numb""Are you happy yet?Now that you see my veins?And while the vultures pick out all my splattered remains... Will you forgive my debts?Do you think I could be saved?Or am I too far gone and all that's left is stains"
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