going insane
Current mood:  gloomy

i moved to phoenix almost a year ago. i feel like i made the right choice, but sometimes (a lot of the time) i wish i had gotten my own place. i wish i had taken things slower with my voyfriend. i only met him in person 3 times before we moved in together. its not like i want freedom or to break up with him, i just wish i had my own space. the room is decorated with his stuff and my altar is on top of a dresser and its not enough room. i need somewhere i can set up my stuff and it wont really be messed with. i feel like my craft is suffering out here. i am ot a desert witch, but i have to learn to be. its hard. i dont have many friends into the same stuff as i am so its not like i have people to reach out to or learn from. i also dont have a bestie. juel is there, but shes back home. i want my own friend. one whos over often and has similar views as i do. that one person i can sit in comfortable silence with, or talk endlessly. im so lonely all the time. when im lonely, i get sad. its annpying. anways im honestly just high rn. so um... peace?