i've never been good at keeping journals
i guess i've always been worried about whether i have anything important to say.
but i suppose that doesn't really matter, this entire site is just me doing whatever the hell i want. and people even seem to like it, though i know that doesn't really support the point i'm trying to make.
i think this might be a good way for me to practice articulating myself, as i feel that lately i've been struggling to find my words in daily conversation. i realised that i've become used to expressing only short, fleeting thoughts across social media or even private messaging, and my creative writing and even instrospection has suffered as a result.
i know some people who journal every day, and i probably won't go so far. i'm afraid that as soon as i make that commitment my resolve will crumble, and i've actually been on a really good productive streak so far.
i want to continue doing well, i want to keep going.
it's hard to keep up my motivation, but i find i'm invigorated by how kind and supportive even complete strangers have been so far.
but i need to work on being okay with just doing this for me.