11/28/2021 09:13 PM  bait Current mood:  miserable there are worms in my basement my mother keeps them in a bucket she feeds them newspaper and cornbread they will never experience childhood and the transition  they will never experience the family to no family pipeline or nolstalgia or heartache they have all they need and i have nothing 0 Comments

09/11/2021 03:45 AM  conviction trying to convince myself that i am loved and not used. trying to convince myself that my friends aren't only around when they need me. trying to convince myself that when i need it, someone will help. trying to convince myself that i do not constantly make mistakes. trying to convince myself that there is a future to work towards. trying to convince myself that the next few months will make it worth my time. trying to convince myself that i can survive. 0 Comments

09/11/2021 03:15 AM  one truth to one lie i don't let people see my house.  i'm not ashamed of my upbringing. i don't mind driving myself home. being driven doesn't stress me out. i don't avoid the mirror in my room. studying my own reflection is not terrifying. i don't know who i am. i've always been completely secure in my identity. i don't trust anyone not to hurt me. i have a healthy concept of relationships. i don't remember how to stop. continuing on has always been easy. 0 Comments

09/11/2021 02:50 AM  omen i've been feeling the nausea before disaster. something is wrong, and i don't know what.  did i lose the part of myself that deserves to be loved? when was my heart not enough? maybe i'm reading into it too much. (yet, i know i deserve better than whatever this is.) 0 Comments

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