vent
Current mood:  angry

my heart is full of burning rage.....it's honestly starting to shock even me
as I write this I'm drowning in agony...my legs are littered with deeps wounds that haven't closed days later..I can't even walk,  yet it's not even that I'm upset about.
MY
F*CKING
MANIPULATIVE
PIECE OF SH*T..
NOW EX-BOYFRIEND..
..broke up with ME only an hour ago.
that dumb f*ck thought I'd fall for his stupid gaslighting.. yeah, sorry to disappoint but I know better LOL.
basically, we got into an argument which arose when I asked, A) why my comment calling him my boyfriend was deleted, and
B) why he never posted about me.
he basically came up with some f*cking bullsh*t response trying to trick me into thinking I was being weird, clingy and that I never even commented in the first place..
THIS ISN'T THE GUY I THOUGHT I WAS FALLING IN LOVE WITH...
It feels like only yesterday when I was falling inlove with him, when he altered his entire f*cking schedule just to have time to meet with me and talk to me all night... when he showed how much he cared for me, how he made felt like I was the prettiest person in the world..
I guess that was just another manipulative tactic, huh?
you never really know someone until you go through sh*t like this, and honestly, I don't think I'm EVER gonna let my guard down again.. 
always follow ur gut instinct, and don't let some piece of sh*t try and manipulate you.
YOU ARE WORTH MORE THAN THAT.
I just can't imagine that this happened, I was literally the happiest guy a few days ago and then this f***ing weirdo gaslights me, guilt trips me into ruining our f*cking relationship.
I just want to be loved
I want to love
I WANT somebody who is ready to ACTUALLY love me, to actually care about me and not manipulate me..
I know I'm young, it just feels like it may be forever away when the right guy eventually comes