I try my best to avoid thinking about the past but today it was unavoidable. I had so much potential, why did it have to get crushed so early on. I could have done so much and now I feel stuck with the pieces of myself i have left over. I wish I had the luxury of knowing what I wanted. i really am trying my best to think in the present and take things one day at a time but soon enough the future will catch up to me and become my reality. i'd do anything to get the drive younger me had just one more time, i just want one more chance with it. instead i feel burnt out and numb, i can't tell if it's the meds or this is just me now. not that I would like either answer very much. i really wish every day didn't feel like I was trapped inside of a ticking time bomb.