Hey everyone, I am doing well just got caught up in school and was drained for a while but I am feeling better! I am doing alright in AP Calc so far, but Physics is a tiny bit hard just because the teacher doesn't have a full class to explain stuff. :/ However, I have been more stable and happier with how my days have been this recent week, and that's a small step but still a big accomplishment for me I think. Recently I have discovered Russain Doomer Music and that was been very interesting so far, (^-^) it is a vibe for sure! The weather today was chilly and it made me so happy. I can't wait for Halloween even though I won't really do much but the decor and smell of the air is something I always look forward to, maybe global warming will make it snow??? It rarely snows lol but one can hope. I think I might try and wear more stuff out of my comfort zone that I wanna wear, I also am going to be babysitting more which I am worried about a tiny bit. It would be hard a week 1 pm-7 pm and its3 kids but they are usually nice and well behaved just school ends at 3 pm so there might be some overlapping. But hopefully, I can manage it when i can and create a good work ethic.goodnight!
Today was pretty good I think, I did a lot better than what I thought I'd do on my Calculus quiz today! I got 87.9 which on the contrary I figured I would fail but I am really happy with how I did on it. I also have been really content with how my school life has been; because the Spanish 1 class didn't have a sub today they had to merge with my class(Spanish 3) and some of the freshmen in there I think were nice to me or something? I had to sit in the back next to a few freshman girls and I moved so one of them could plug in their charger and as I was moving my desk some of them said hi and waved to me even though I didn't know them. Anyways they seemed nice and maybe they thought I was cool? I really liked my fit today and I thought I looked really cool lol. I hope everyone is okay and sleeping alright, bye-bye for now :).
Hi everyone, sorry for not posting. Recently as of yesterday, my kitty died. I've had him and his brother since I was 6 and I am now 17 so I really have been through everything with him and raised him since he was so soo sooo tiny. I can not describe how saddened I was when my neighbor walked over and told me she had found he not moving, I was devastated and still am. He still lives within my heart every minute of every day, his brother still lives but life will not be the same. :( On a lighter note, he did not die tragically like from a car or another animal, we believe he had a stroke or maybe a heart attack so hopefully, it wasn't too stressful or painful for him. I tried to put an image of him on my stream but I still do not know how to put in a picture to my blog.
Just now having all the stress catch up to me from school starting two weeks in, I am unbelievably tired and everything makes me either sad or think about memories I dont want to think about. I am really scared of putting my all into new realationships after my last one and even friend realationships, I wish I could recover better but it takes so long it feels like. I think about things to far maybe, I wish I knew true intentions so I wouldn't waste my love on people. Goodnight.
omggg today was so weird!! I felt off going into first block and then I took a short nap second block and I woke up with the PEE PEE POO POO CHECK song suck in my head loool. xD Anyways I was trying to figure out how to put in a cute picture of chunky boi but I am not good in coding, I'll figure it out from some tutorial. ^-^
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I think I might try and wear more stuff out of my comfort zone that I wanna wear, I also am going to be babysitting more which I am worried about a tiny bit. It would be hard a week 1 pm-7 pm and its3 kids but they are usually nice and well behaved just school ends at 3 pm so there might be some overlapping. But hopefully, I can manage it when i can and create a good work ethic.
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Anyways they seemed nice and maybe they thought I was cool? I really liked my fit today and I thought I looked really cool lol.
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I can not describe how saddened I was when my neighbor walked over and told me she had found he not moving, I was devastated and still am. He still lives within my heart every minute of every day, his brother still lives but life will not be the same. :( 
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today was so weird!!
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