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Tales of Books-A-Million Bargained Priced Yuri
Current mood:
 lonely
TW: For mentions of Depression and Tales of Bad Mental Health
Executive Dysfunction and anxiety mixed together is the absolute worst! It's like your screaming with your body, banging from inside the walls of your skin to alert the nervous system to do something! Anything, just to make the anxiety dissipate...but nothing. You just can't seem to move, the mussels of your body unwavering and no matter how many times you try to tell yourself to get up...you can't. Now, days like that tend to start and end with me either scrolling through Tiktok for hours on end until it triggers a massive migraine or staring at the ceiling until that triggers my dissociation and schizophrenia to have a bloody field day! But, both tend to end with me crying myself to sleep as my crippling self-worth taunts me via suicidal vocal tics into the darkness.
But not today! I was able to stop the cycle before heading too far down the "staring at my ceiling" route and made my way to my local Books-A-Million(Yippie!) I was ecstatic to find that the manga selection exceeded all expectations! From a whole section dedicated to both Funko Pop! figures to actual Anime figures. They even had an area dedicated to Pusheen plushies! (There were even Animal Crossing plushies! Like how cute is that!!) They also had so much variety in manga too! From Jellyfish Princess, to Cutie Honey, To Love Ru, Dragon Slayer, even Urusei Yatsura!! Totally would have bought that last one if it wasn't $20! Same with Cutie Honey as well! But allies...I am broke :( In fact, walking in I had no intention of purchasing anything, until I came across Nagata Kabi's Manga on sale for $4!!
The manga in question was her Volume 1 of the "My Solo Exchange Diary" which talks in detail about her struggles with mental health, depression, and isolation she feels is as a Lesbian Manga artist in Japan. The first book in the series, "My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness" struck such a chord with young Queer Qena back in 2016. She was the first person to write depression in the way I felt it and experienced it. It was like she took the words out of my mouth that had failed panic attack, after panic attack to form out of my blubbering cries for help. So to find out she wrote more and it was on sale for 4 bucks, sign me up!! If you want to read it I'll leave the Dynasty Reader link at the end! It's a fantastic read, both depressing and kinda comforting in a bittersweet way! https://dynasty-scans.com/series/the_private_report_on_my_lesbian_experience_with_loneliness
Anyways that's it for today! As much as I adore writing it can take a lot out of me! Thanks for reading!
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