heartbreak?
Current mood:  confused

 I should care, right? like I should feel sad that the person I wanted to give everything to just found someone else but for some reason, I don't like my body or mind can't really process it. I guess it has to do with the fact that I thought he would always be there, he was someone I ran to when things got bad and they got bad pretty often but I guess he wasn't always going to care. to be honest, I thought he was my twin flame, I mean he made me feel ways that I can't describe without it having to be sexual. maybe I was in love with the fact that he never asked anything like that from me unless I was sober and made the first move. the only thing that I do somewhat feel is anger and a little bit of jealousy. I'm jealous because he lead me on for almost half a year while making me think I was the only one when the whole time he was saying he wasn't ready for a relationship because of his past. but this is all my fault I guess.