dont read this, i just need to get it out
but if u do i talk abt not eating n stuff so be wary of that
i swear i gotta delete tiktok so many times bc i get so much blatant thinspo on my fyp or girls bragging abt how skinny they are and it makes me feel so humiliated. ive dieted, ive worked out for months and i still see no changes in my weight or physical appearance. the only way i ever lose weight is just not eating. thats why it makes me sick when ppl say all overweight women have to do is watch what they eat and they'll be fine. it takes YEARS to get to the shape of girls who are just naturally skinny. i hate how people tell me im not fat and im really small because it's just not true. i see fat all over my body and it just makes me sick i wish i could just chop it off or something. the media is just one big shtstorm of ppl telling u to hate urself, directly or indirectly. it makes me sick. it makes me so sick and im so tired. im so alone.