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i dont know how i feel
Current mood:
melancholy
i dont know if melancholy is the right feeling for this, i know theres a cause. but for the past 3 years ive been feeling melancholy. ive been depressed. ever since you left ive been having panic attacks and i dont know why. im embarrassed because you arent real. but i still get so sad over someone who isnt real. i get so jealous over someone who doesnt want me and isnt afraid to leave me. i get so jealous over someone who replaces me so easily i was so possessive over somebody who never even cared or loved me. i dont feel sad right now, just neutral, so its hard to convey my thoughts because im not feeling. why did you say you love her and never me? why did i get fake "i love u's" and just "i like you"'s? why cant that be me? why cant you love me?
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