Last Login:
November 21st, 2020

Gender: Male

Age: 16
Country: United Kingdom

Signup Date:
June 23, 2020


10/20/2020 11:10 PM 

feeling alone

Sometimes I get this kinda lonliness that I can't ignore. It doesn't matter how many people who love me or how many people I can see love me, sometimes I just can't feel that love. I spent my life chasing people trying to chase away that feeling. The more friends I had the more friends I wanted and no matter how many friends I had I never felt like I had enough.There was a point in my life where i went to parties almost every night, had girls I liked and girls how liked me, I was popping pingers with alchohol and running from cops became a weekly thing. And there was a point in my life where I had no one, spent every wekend alone and sent f***ing paragraphs to a girl who could never give a f*** about me.
Want to know something? You never stop feeling that loneliness, that need to be normal, that need to have more. At a point you realise it isn't about who you surround yourself with, it's about you. Maybe I'll never stop feeling like this, but right now I'm just trying to make it through.

07/09/2020 08:24 PM 

some1 buy me salami
Current mood:  hungry

weirdly I'm really craving salami right now, but a few issues with that:
1. I'm vegatarian
2. It's almost 2am and all the shops are closed
3. I do not have the money for salami
so im jus gon pretend i'm eating salami 

07/09/2020 08:18 PM 


Jus cut my hair and oml I look like such an egg...a friend of mine really wants me to straighten it right now, but i would become a full f***ing roadman if i did so ima dodge that...if anyone knows how to fix a complete f*** up of a haircut hmu :,p

07/04/2020 10:30 PM 

Girls ʕ•́ᴥ•̀ʔっ♡
Current mood:  loved

This don't even need to be said but oml girls are so gorgeous it's insane...she's so soft and when she pust her face in your hands she just dissapears into you and she smells like warmth and cigeratte smoke and and I just want to lay there and breath her in. She talks in a whisper and it makes me melt into whatever she says and just get taken away by it, but sometimes she talks in a messy shout when she's excited and it's like listening to a birds call and I just want to dance to the rhythm of her excitement. And when she looks at you it's like you've been chosen by the angels for something beyond yourself and you just want to let her destory you. And she fits under your arm so perfectly, she can be so small and fragile if she nees to be like a china doll you could just sit and admire the detail of for your entire life, but she can also be strong and powerful, like a godess watching over you demading your submission and either way your so perfectly in love with her it's incomprehendable. Girls are

06/25/2020 08:38 PM 

lookin back

I was goin through all the accounts on my saved passwords and deleting what I don't use anymore and i found this old mental health forum I used to post on bout 2 years ago. It was really weird though cause I realised how much my mindset had changed. I used to be so hurt if anyone insulted me and woud respond, i think because I viewed their opinion as important for some reason. But when I look at those old comments people made now, I just feel bad for them. Imagine attacking a 12 year old talking about their struggle with mental health. It's so...sad. I didn't understand why they did it at the time, but I think I get it more now. I went through a phase in my life where i was super defensive towards anyone who didn't fit the idea of what people should be in my mind, but it didn't come from a place of power like they try to show it does. It comes from a place of deep insecurity, where you can't except tht you are as you are so you try and mold the world to fit your flaws. I don't know it just weird to look back with a deeper level of understanding and see the power they used to have over me completly fade.

06/25/2020 02:35 PM 


I've been playing dnd with some friends of mine and holy f*** the second before the game starts is the most stressful moment of my life, way too much sh*t going on... I swear I'm not super lame I just like making up caharacters and sh*t

06/24/2020 10:02 PM 

who actually sleeps at 3am

I haven't eaten in ages and I just downed two massive lucasade bottles cause they were on cheap at the co op. Now I feel like God and I;m defintiely not sleeping tonight.

06/24/2020 09:41 PM 

Hello world
Current mood:  bored

I spent bout 4 hours making my profile now I have no idea what to say post...

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