08/15/2021 01:51 PM  Life Update Current mood:  blah I haven't written anything here for a while now, life kinda feels like I'm stuck in limbo.  A lot happened since my last blog post, I'm on meds for my OCD and they're helping with a bunch of stuff. I was good for a while but honestly right now I'm bored as hell all the time. I miss my friends and I want to do something fun but everything is still closed. I'm really close to giving myself a piercing with a saftey pin or a sh*tty stick n poke with caligraphy ink, if I'm bored for too long I end up doing something stupid.  0 Comments

11/11/2020 06:26 AM  High Streets and Low Moods Current mood:  melancholy I went out for the first time in a long time. I bough more clothes that I don't really need and might never wear, but I was happy thinking about the possibility of dressing up and going out, even though I never do.  I had another therapy appointment. We spoke about getting medication, sertraline they said. Maybe it'll work this time, or maybe it'll just be something to write another cliche song about. At least it will be something instead of nothing.  0 Comments

10/31/2020 10:06 PM  HALLOWEEN! Current mood:  happy It's Halloween! My favourite holiday! I didn't get to do my usual yearly stuff, obviously. I watched Halloween movies and ate a bunch of candy though. I saw the endings of The Corpse Bride and The Addams Family, and watched all of The Addams Family Values and Halloween (the 2018 one). I f***ing love the addams family movies, there's nothing better. I didn't wear a costume this year because I'm not going out, but I'm thinking of recreating some old halloween costumes.  0 Comments

09/01/2020 01:39 PM  Horror Films and Skipping School I watched a movie on Netflix a couple days ago called I See You, it's actually pretty good. I enjoyed it a lot. Owen Teague was in it. The way the timeline plays out it pretty cool. I want to talk about the parts I really like but I don't want to spoil it, just go watch it.  I watched another horror movie the day before that about slenderman, it was pretty sh*t. The girl from The Kissing Booth was in it, she can't act at all. Javier Botet was also in it as the slenderman, but you barely get to see him. They do that with a lot of movies he's in, they have him be this incredible monster thing, that looks cool and is really creepy, and then barely have him be in the movie at all. They decide to rely more on the plot, except the writing is terrible. If you have a great monster then use the great monster. I guess maybe the reason they don't have him in them more is because a lot of the costumes he wears are difficult to wear for a long time.  I haven't been to school for a couple days, I kind of had this epiphany yesterday, like "what the f*** am I actually doing". Why am I doing this? Why am I bothering to try and get these qualifications? I'll probably never use them, and school is making me miserable. I think I'm just going to drop out again.  0 Comments

08/26/2020 10:35 PM  Thoughts Rock is dead, and so is my will to live I want to scream I want to learn giutar and write a song, For you, for me, to piss people off, to make people happy To have something to do But I won't, because I never do. I want to go to a cemetery And dance through the graves No matter what anyone says Because the corpses don't care, And if they do they can haunt me It wouldn't make much difference. 0 Comments

08/26/2020 08:53 PM  Shoplifting and assault, yay! I got accused of "assaulting a teacher" yesterday. Baby, when I assault someone you'll f***ing know it. So I left, I walked to the nearby supermarket in the middle of a storm and got completely drenched. I stole some saftey pins because I can't find any in the house, it wasn't thrilling or even scary, I kept forgetting I'd even done it.  0 Comments

08/11/2020 10:07 PM  . I know for a fact I can’t choose how I feel Because despite it all I still love you 0 Comments

08/11/2020 05:45 PM  Life Is Getting Bad Again Current mood:  depressed I'm getting depressed again. I want to go back to when I was a kid, I think that's why I'm trying to cling on to the whole scene/emo thing. I'll probably never get back to that, not really. But I suppose it wouldn't hurt to try.  0 Comments

07/16/2020 09:02 PM  :P  Hey  0 Comments

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