04/03/2019 04:20 PM  surv Current mood:  chipper bored thot i'd do this idk where 2 put these! 63 Annoying Questions Survey  (blank posted by OP) 1. Song that always makes you sad? korn- daddy pat benatar- hell is for children 2. Last thing you bought? apple juice. was thirsty n thot id pay tribute to the urine test i had to take yesterday 3. Last person you argued with? not sure 4. Do you put Butter before putting the peanut butter on? what do i put peanut butter on 5. One of your stuffed animals' names as a kid? suzy 6. Did you ever own at one time a Barenaked Ladies Cd? no 7. Favorite day of the week? saturday, or whatever day i get off 8. Favorite Sundae topping? hot fudge 9. Did you take Piano lessons?  no 10. Most frequent song played? by me, or on the uhh radio CD player whatever? i'm not sure what song i listen to most often in general v_v i listen to megadeth a lot? song i perform most often is probably "i just want to have something to do" by the ramones. its the first song i actually learned how to play fully and its really simple so sometimes i just kinda subconsciously relay it 11. T.V. show you secretly enjoy? judge judy or any of those weird religious shows 12. Would you rather play basketball or hockey? not particularly fond of either but uhh hockey i suppose 13. Date someone older or younger? as long as theyre in my general range ill date someone, i dont really like age gaps 14. One place you could travel right now? i mean i could go to the convenience store 15. Do you use umbrellas? yeah when it rains 16. Do you know all the words to the Canadian national anthem? not canadian, don't know the words to my own country's national anthem LMAO  17. Favorite Cheese? i dont like cheese except for when i cant really taste it. basically i dont like cheese so my favorite cheese is american 18. The Smith's or the Cure? havent listened to either 19. Do you prefer Blondes or Brunettes? oh goddamn are these more bands or is this just a general question? i don't really mind either its just hair and i prefer to dye mine anyway 20. Best job you ever had? bold of you 21. did you go to your high school prom? im not eligible to go to prom also its like 70 bucks for entry so Unlikely 22. perfect time to wake up? whenever you feel rested 23. perfect time to go to bed? i like 2 stay up so i usually go to bed late when i have time off 24. do you use your queen right away in chess? i dont really play chess 25. Ever been in a car accident? no 26. closer to mom or dad...or neither? its complicated 27. what age is this exciting life over for you? i mean you never know, i could die right now, tomorrow, maybe a few weeks from now, maybe i'll live long enough to start a fight club in the old folks home, you never know 28. what decade during the 20th century would you have chosen to be a teenager? probably the 80s or 90s because i'm not huge on systematic oppression  29. Favorite shoes you have EVER owned? i only really wear black sneakers and boots i dont exactly have a favorite pair because its hard to find anything really my style (on GOD i want platform boots) 30. Do you have an article of clothing you have had since you were in high school? quite a few actually 31. Were you in track and field? nah, considered but never did 32. Were you ever in a school talent show? nothing 2 show 33. Have you ever written in a library book? probably LOL cant remember 34. Allergic to?  might have a pollen allergy but thats it 35. Favorite fruit? oranges / mango 36. Have you watched sex and the city? no 37. Baseball hat or toque? whats a toque... i wear caps usually yeah the first 38. Do you shampoo first in the shower or soap? depends on my mood 39. Wet the toothbrush or brush dry with the toothpaste? wet because im stupde 40. Pen or pencil? pen 41. Have you ever gambled at a casino? i'm 15 42. Have you thrown up on a plane? ive never been on a plane 43. Have you thrown up in a car? maybe once out of spite but like, no 44. Have you thrown up at work? no 45. Do you scream on roller coasters? probably did, i dont really think i just do it 46. Who was your first prom date? you'll see 47. Who was your first roommate? ghost roomate 48. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk for the first time? bro... 49. What was your first job? not employed 50. What was your first car? not legal 51. When did you go to your first funeral? was like 8 or something i think 52. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown? never moved 53. Who was your first grade teacher? sort of awkward tall lady with a lot of puppets 54. Where did you go on your first airplane ride? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D8M8I2SYEiA&feature=youtu.be&t=18 55. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? myself, i did it 56. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them? its complicated 57. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parent's house? did i do that already shiiit 58. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? ,:/ 59. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen? never happened 60. What is the first thing you do in the morning? WAKE UP 61. What was the first concert you attended? metallica back in like 2016? 2017? it was in wolfboro or some sh*t idk 62. First tattoo or piercing? dont have any yet but GOD i want them 63. First celebrity crush? never got one  0 Comments

03/10/2019 07:39 PM  uneventful Current mood:  anxious weekend was pretty, as the title may suggest, uneventful im still way behind on that drawing challenge thing i wanted to do 4 march whatever guitar lessons went fine, i already sorta forgot whatever my instructor tried to teach me yesterday but i did get the name of the song down somewhere so i can probably remember it i didn't really do anything else over the weekend besides stay inside and be useless its too bad too, im not really looking forward 2 going back 2 school. my friends are cool and i dont like get bullied or anything but its just kind of laborious being there and like, doing things health class in particular bores the ever living F*** out of me, the whole class is just rehashed BS and i dont really like the kids i have it with i also seem to have this weird curse where a lot of times the people i like the most think i hate them, and the people i hate the most cannot physically bring themselves to stop being around me, and it tends to drive me, for lack of a better word, absolutely pigsh*t insane. i don't know why it is that way Q_Q i consider it more of a personal flaw i.e. my failure to be assertive enough, like its easy to tell annoying strangers to f*** off or just avoid them if theyre bad enough, but when they become literally anything more than just a d*ckhead or an annoying person, its hard to get them to f*** off you know? once they know your name and actively are trying to be near you, then its like..... whoops! i have issues with like, being real with these people, you see? like i usually try to make it really obvious what people or things i hate because im hyper-vigilant about who i will voluntarily allow to infest my closer circles and i want to minimize sh*tty conflicts and occasions wherein the people around me really irk me. i try to fend off having bad experiences with people i know im not going to like through attempting to intimidate or disgust them into not wanting to be near me, and it works for the most part, but then you get sh*tty whoevers that just want to get all up in your face and see you dance. i don't care about entertaining an audience. whether im a narcissist or a exhibitionist or whatever crazy sh*t i cant really get but i am more performative, i guess? and i dont mind people trying to be my friend, necessarily. but its the people that try too hard, or just don't pick up when youre not finding them cute and funny, i guess. maybe they see you as just like a zoo animal or something, that you're crazy and they think you're gonna give them a show. or they just keep trying to be your bro or something which is... unfathomably f***ing annoying but i find it hard because like, if these people i hate keep trying to be around me it makes me feel bad because i feel like im lying to them, because they clearly havent picked up that i hate them so they must think i want to be their friend or something. which is not true, so im like, luring them into a false sense of friendship!! oh god oh f*** but also theyre in too deep and if i tell them how i feel theyll try to guilt trip me or whine or try to turn others on me when really its not like a moral issue or something i just dont like you and i want you to stop talking to me dude...... and if i just avoid them without saying anything thats just sort of excessive and also theyll sh*t at me. also sometimes you go in thinking someone is cool but then you get to know them better and its just kind of like digging for gold in a giant trench full of human sh*t i don't know what i'm even getting at here so im just gonna go ahead and like, say what im talking about. there's this girl in my health class that just buuugs me. i got forced to work in a group with her once and now she knows my name and everything and she keeps trying to talk to me idk what to say... ive been dropping huge i mean absolutely MASSIVE cues that i dont like her but i guess she just doesn't get it? i don't know what i have to do, i mean i get the vibes that shes just screwing with me or thinks she's in for the f***ing circus, but of course im paranoid all the time and she could just be really dense i dont think i need to get into why i don't like her, i probably will at some point anyway i just don't know what i have to do!! it hurtz me to have to play along like this man how do i get someone to go away i feel like ive made it all too obvious that i don't like her already and its kind of almost baffling that she hasn't really picked it up. occasionally she'll hit me with one of those "why are you mean / why are you always angry" things like that so she recognizes that its hostile behavior but she doesn't really get the implications??? like im not. Like that im not taking out my anger on you or anything i want you to go away its also kinda f***ed up for other reasons, like id feel bad being mean to her because she DID give me money once, and she'd probably use that as a reason as to why i shouldn't not like her. to be fair though, i only asked her because i was broke and she was the only person around, it was only a dollar because i wanted a water, and i did pay her back so id think that ends our conditional paypig pact, but idk man. also i recently found out her brother is a kid i think is cool and am kind of friends with? so i think i have to stay on good terms with her because of him v_v its all so complex ive considered writing her a hate note, like a love note but for people you hate. probably excessive and i probably wont do it anyway but huuuuuuuu ill end it on this. please uhhh you know people in that weird online new age hippie nice guy collective, weirdos obsessed with being consistently PG and being nice to everyone they meet and forcing the narrative that you Definitely do not have an ulterior motive: we'll stay out of each other's way yeah? but like can you PLEASE for the love of good god damn jesus nipple please just stop propagating this narrative that people that are Not Nice you know big meanie weenies :( are just doing it because theyre jaded and misunderstood and are ACTUALLY precious soft boi smol cinnamon roll must protecc that were just afraid of something. thats not a real thing. i hate to break it to you but that doesn't happen in real life. you saw it in a video game or something but people dont do that. im not some weird ass irl tsundere if i'm actually mean to you its because i dont like you LOL dont talk to me i have reasons for doing the things i do surprisingly im not pathologically made to do things like a caged dog and im not gonna turn out to be your buddy if you suck up to me and kiss ass constantly whoops oh and i guess theres a guy in that class thats also there that just is kind of annoying but not in a particularly notable way maybe if i got to know him better id think he was less awful but IDK 0 Comments

03/10/2019 02:54 PM  what do you believe in that stuff uuhhhhhh Current mood:  cookywacky Sorry for kooky on main but its always made me lol how quick people especially weird white girls are to call you a conspiracy theorist or some sh*t liek that if you talk about things like corporate malpractice or bad sh*t the government has done and think youre crazy for it but the same exact people distribute fearmongering articles about the momo challenge or whatever and think you can talk to ghosts with f***ing ouija boards. Bitches believe in taurus moon rising and reading the stars but not war crimes apparently 0 Comments

03/09/2019 08:19 PM  cute Current mood:  amorous got new earbuds i have the ability to feel joy again idk what else i was going to write about 0 Comments

03/08/2019 04:15 PM  minecraft chest meme voice HOW Current mood:  handsome >earbuds blew out today >me and my friend both buy skullcandy headphones >telling her sh*t like "these suck, they break after like, a month. i buy them because they're pretty cheap but it's a lot to pay all the time so i might try and buy something else" >"really? idk what you're doing, i've had these for like half a year now and they haven't sh*t the bed yet" >realize they blew out because i always listen to my music too loud sorry for meme arrows am i giving myself aural damage 0 Comments

03/07/2019 07:44 PM  life is a trial i think im experiencing the exact same emotion my friends did when i got into homestuck except my mom is into harry potter now i literally can’t even be judgmental at her im just kinda dumbfounded liek how do you f*** up wizards so hard 0 Comments

03/07/2019 04:08 PM  might need to mortally wound someone Current mood:  quiet there's footprints in my yard. my mom seems a little disconcerted by this. the thing is, i do remember hearing voices outside late tuesday night. i didn't know they were outside my house, i just knew they were outside and i figured someone's just getting home or something. i didn't see anything. the voices, if i remember correctly, sounded a little older, like someone in the 17 - 20 something age range? im somewhat sure i remember the voices being male, but i think they had a girl with them too. i don't believe theyve been back, and it couldve just been some kids on a walk or something. i'll have to do something if they come back though, because i don't trust anything in this neighborhood and i really can't be cool with that. if i actually catch someone outside my house, i'll need to do something. i might end up getting in a fight, which is a thought that sort of. is not pleasant to me because of my less than desirable height???? and also the fact that i don't have any real weapons. idk this just makes me T_T i do have a hammer and a spare bottle, ill make do with that if need be, but man, idkkk 0 Comments

03/05/2019 08:57 PM  im out of my cage someone stop me Current mood:  groggy apologies ive been all absent and sh*t im back now i found a CD at the pawn shop for 3 dollars (buckcherry - confessions) and got kind of excited but then almost submitted to urges to mutilate something when it turned out to be some of the worst sh*t that ive ever listened to. really disappointed but i guess i got my money's worth i also got a new clown! wait idk if ive talked about the clowns here yet. i like clowns, thats kind of my thing. ive cognized a penchant for collecting clown dolls. i have about 3 now, plus some other not particularly notable clown-related items. im wondering what to name this one. ive been going with an alliteration theme here, like, my first one was lester, then my second was lemmy... ive been thinking about naming the new one lux, because i like the name and also its sort of a reference to lux interior of the cramps, who is probably one of the closest things i have to an actual idol. idk though, i feel like that would be kind of really creepy. of course, its my project, and i have no obligation to continue with the theme- i just think it would probably be kind of cute if i did. also it doesnt need to be a guy, all clowns are pretty androgynous. should i post pix? thats all i have 4 now blegh 0 Comments

03/02/2019 11:05 PM  thoughts Current mood:  eccentric i had a dream about robots last night. wouldnt it be f***ed up if robots with "sentience" were real and were peacefully assimilated and accepted into society but were literally just government wiretaps? i think that would be pretty crazy lol 0 Comments

02/28/2019 10:21 PM  post wow i really went into this thinking i knew what i wanted to talk about LOL just forgot anyway im still here im thinking about abandoning tunglr and just moving here or somewhere similar tumblr makes me huge f***ing zzz to be on its one of those sites where i feel like i literally cant find a clique i feel like i fit into ppl r liek ohhh you shouldnt be on it anyway because f***ing band member discourse or some dum sh*t like that nah theyre just annoying thats it really on tumbly i feel more like im entertaining an audience than making friends and im fine with having an audience but the audience is also like consisting entirely of drug test monkeys with knives and im wearing a gross wife beater exposing my hairy fat white man tummy and theres a dotted line directly over where my entrails should be and theyre eyeing it at all times im over-dramatic i guess but itz kinda hard to keep e-relationships strong i dropped my main social media and im scavenging for somewhere i can stay the only contact i have with my friends is thru discord and some of them have like, my handle on some obscure clown fetish sites or something like that i do have a lot of friends irl i guess but they dont want to do the same sort of things that i feel comfy doing with my e-pals and ok i sound like Im Not Like Ohter Girls so im just gonna stop talking aghghhg why does my anxiety have to ruin all the time i get to myself! i have this week off and i just want to get comf and have fun but i cant help but just fear for having to not be on vacation anymore its f***ed up idk thats abt it 0 Comments

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