hell

its been hell so i had to a lot of choas in my life recently but my freind got to call me on my birthday 
she told a guy i was into who she was freinds with moved away and that broke my heart i had plans to meet him on my birthday 
but then the next day she ghosted me she told me we could call the next day and i was waiting so i called her 
but no answear called again still no answear but now i think of it it it seems like we have been losing touch i told her i was gonna take a break this lonleyness is hell i know its temporary well thats what i keep saying she the only freind i gt only one am close too plus listening to some dsbm really hits once your life has gone to sh*t but i hope it gets better