I feel so lost in my life, I messed up and im not going to college for a semester. Everything is too much, too much sound, too many people, too many visuals and i shut down. I didnt do anything, i went to class, came home, and laid in bed. I hate not being productive, but i want to sit and wait all at the same time. i feel like im waiting for something but I don't know what it is. I think its gonna feel like this until I die, im always waiting on something and all I can do is retract into myself and keep waiting. I want this pressure on my body to go away, im tired.