I want to be pure
Category: Real Life
I’ve found out that I am addicted to feeling pure. The type of pure that is found in a child. Ever since I was fourteen i’ve had this obsession with trying to regain my childhood. I wasn’t prepared to be a teenager, I’m not prepared to be an adult.
This obsession has lead me down the path of what some consider an eating disorder. I only fill myself with what I consider pure.
I only drink water and tea, specifically Oolong tea.
I eat baby snacks as they will keep me as pure as a baby.
I try to avoid meats, they’re bloody and impure to me.
I love all fruits and vegetables, for what God put onto this Earth for us to eat must be pure.
Occasionally I will treat myself to a childhood dessert; like ice cream or scones.
Feeling lightheaded makes me feel euphoric. Every time I have a bowel movement I can feel the impurities leaving me.
My impulses to binge or eat things impure are sins to me.
Anything that keeps me away from that childhood lightness is a sin.