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how did i get here
Current mood:
quiet
some part me wants to keep this time capsule untouched. i haven't really looked at this website since the intial lockdown like most people. i remember writing most of the entries probably because there are so few in such a bizarre time. the initial nostalgia shininess of this has worn off. that's why it's a virtual ghost town, but even the idea of a myspace revival doesn't excite me as much as it used to anymore. lorde did say "all the music you loved at sixteen you'll grow out of" and i did. i loved it when i was 12 and then again when i was 16 and then maybe i'll fall in love with it again when i'm 23. i know i'm not really old yet. not really. it doesn't stop me from wishing i could go back in time to when i wrote these older blog posts. people are right about me. i'm too caught up in my own head. i've gotten so lost in surviving just day to day that it feels ridiculous. it feels like i'm missing a time and version of myself that still exists, but really two years have somehow passed without me noticing
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