war

hello ppl!
and here i am writing my second post. i hate it here. i hate this world. yesterday i grabbed sum coffee with my friends, and there was a whole group of cool looking ppl chillin in the front of the cafe. they were all talking in english and the barista later told us they are ukrainian. to me it made very much sense, because ive been seeing lots of new faces in the sh*t hole i live. when we left we greeded them and left. 
at the moment it feels illegal to me to be exited or happy abt smth. when i see sum photos of nice places or houses in the world, im always like `ye, when i finally move out, imma go there` or `hell yeah, imma find a house like that for myself`. and the next moment i feel guilty.