i feel like absolute sh*t
Current mood:  blah

i feel like sh*t so to make myself feel better, (or worse probably) im going to talk about everything thats been making me feel like sh*t lately, or not lately idfk:

i miss my bf who was never rly my bf. we were just friends lol but now we cant talk bc of his stupid bitch ass mother and i also never got to tell him how i felt in full and now i cant and idk if ill ever be able to live that down.

speaking of ex bfs and sh*t, my ex bf who actually was my bf lmao, kinda miss him too. we were still cool after we broke up and now he hates me for reasons idk and i hate that. i dont want to be friends with him bc he sucks ass, i just kinda want him to not hate me?

my parents. thats it. their expectations r too high and theyre too strict and i cant take it. i just feel like as i get older they try their hardest to make me want to f***ing kill myself. i literally cannot wait to be out of this house and away from these people.

school. i hate school. its so hard, im not the gifted and talented girl everyone thought i was in elementary school. i dont understand anything and i dont have the motivation to do any work.

chores. they wouldnt be so bad if i actually had a shred of motivation left, sadly i do not.

i have to do things. i hate that i have to do things. i dont want to do anything. i just want to sleep. not even because im lazy and just dont want to do anything, i literally just dont feel like i can. i feel like ive lost all my talents. i cant do anything right anymore and im too much of a bitch to make a second attempt at anything. i dont even have the energy to talk to my friends anymore.

mk thats all lmao bye