deep sh*t

man I wanna kms so bad but I won't because I care what happens to my family and how they'd feel if I was gone. and part of the reason is my dog... he loves to eat my things, bite me, and just terrorize me like youre supposed to be guarding us not being a menace... he sheds so much and burns up all of our money for what? for him him to just bite us and eat our things like god I hate him. another reason is my siblings they're always on each others sides so im alone I can barely do things because im "mean" to them and im not saying im not but in my defense i give them mercy i could be WAAAY meaner. theyre so annoying and i hate my life and i always bore my friends w my probs so i dont want to call and plus i really only have maybe 4-5 friends so i could understand if theyre annoyed of me. so yeah! i think im going into an episode and ive been clean for months so i dont want to ruin that and the only other coping mechanism i have is to rearrange my room but i did that yesterday and i like how it looks. yknow what im gonna go figure out how to bkeach my eyebrows without bleach or do my makeup... thats a healthy coping mechanism.. yup gonna go do that BYEE XP