flesh, blone, bones, frame.

i wish i felt it. i wish i wasnt this way. i want to be a certain way. laugh a certain way. look a certain way. act. speak. carry myself differently. i want to be more. i want to be less. i want to be comfertable with myself. i wish i was someone else. one of those people that have everything together. have everything going for them. have health. have looks. have character. i hate this feeling. i wish i wasnt always comparing myself to others. even with cc, she somehow is just more than i am or ever will be. i think she's pretty. everyone does.