looking forward 2 da change
Category: Blogging

yesterday was too good of a day to be true. but it really happened so i guess it was true. the last time i felt that happy was when i had a person of interest take away all my problems. and guess what? my source of happiness has nothing to do with romantic feelings!!! im so proud of myself. first things first, i got a job finally!! my interview went really well and the manager, adrianna, and myself have a similar background which is really cool. my mom n i went to go eat at this mexican food truck after we went to the dmv to get my id done (my beaded necklace also came in the mail but it arrived after i took the picture smh - im practically damon albarn). the orange bangs they served there were ok,, wish they had strawberry flavors tho. me n victoria already made plans earlier in the day, so when she came over i surpised her w the news n she was really happy for me. we went to kaos and i found two of the cds i was looking for as well!! the farmers market happened to be the same night so we walked there after and got boba. im also proud to say that i only ate once. a mcdouble. round of applause. i haven't eaten yet so we'll see when i start feeling hungry again. it's probably bad that makes me happy too, but even through all this good news my mind is still wired differently. don't be fooled with all these exclamation marks n colorful vocabulary, that voice in my head is still not letting me accept it. i still haven't taken my meds and i hope i never do, but with all this new stuff going on im not so sure i can distract myself any longer. who knows, maybe this "new stuff" is another distraction. i am very thankful though, i just wish my brain would let me experience happiness like a normal person. these posts always end up being sh*t at the end. oops. welllll that's my good news lol. very excited and scared and all things in between. peace.