june gloom
Category: Blogging

everything is slowly going back to normal - along with a few revrbished things - which im very happy about. it's about time. i'm currently writing this is the bathroom with the light off, not that this has anything to do with anything, but i'm trying not to let grandma be concerned or weirded out by it lol. excuse me if this blog post doesn't sense, ritchie woods is plying in the backround and it's a bit distracting to say the least, but at least the current ambiance is calming down my thoughts that could possibly stop me from ruining it. he needs to release new music soon. hope he's okay. anyway, it feels nice not trying for once. not that i ever did (trying to try is hard too, if that makes any sense) but sh*t.. putting in effort where it's not reciprocated in the same way can really hurt. i'm tired of letting people hurt me. i still have things to work on and that's ok. but i like to think i'm getting better gradually. i also need to remind myself for the future - because we all know this isn't gonna last forever - that it's normal for recovery to not be linear. june was one of the most physically draining months yet, and im so glad it's almost over despite everything. i equally acompanied friends n loved ones while completely ignoring them. it really is possible to be dissconected from existance one minute then be brought back into it so easily the next. current obsessions: britpop, reading, sugar free orbit gum, decorating, daria-core, taking breaks from reality, long nails, the color green. happy cancer season (gross) and f*** the retrograde. peace.