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drug diary
Pretty simple trying to keep note of drugs i've tried
Alchohol - not exciting, but effects include extreme joy, mild brain fog, change in normal movement, possible tiredness, lack of rational thinking when alone extreme sadness worst experience most likely my first time drinking when I threw up all over Arabs floor and then had a hangover for days general hangover - moderate
Weed - Depends on strain, but typically mild hallucigenics more closely described as change in normal perception, for example colours may seem more bright, patterns may be more notable; euphoria or feeling of numbness, detachment from self, change in perception, tiredness, laughter associated with said euphoria, lack of speech associated with numbness, lack of hearning or significant change in hearing, blurred vision, epiphanies, dry mouth worst experience - bad trip alone in room felt like I could feel my heart beating out of my chest, extreme headache, paranoia, general feeling of dsicomfort No comedown or hangover
Citalopram (10mg) (anti anxitey/ anti depressant) - Little effect, mood swings, drowsiness, moments of euphoria, easiness with communication, irritation, loss of appitite, dry mouth, aches easy to become reliant despite little effect, physcial effects of withdrawl mild comedown, experiences of anxiety (30 mg) - intense detachment + floating feeling, dizziness, haziness, blurred vision, mood swings intense comedown, thought I was going to die, extreme anxiety
Aderall - short euphoria and connection with others, one thought mind a.k.a. only able to maintain one solid thought, mild increase in focus but decrease in memory, dry mouth, inability to eat, neausea, headaches, mild attachment from self No worst experience currently moderate to extreme comedown - very short comedown, similar to that of mdma, feelings of emptiness, regret, depression and lack of hope
Mdma - (most extreme high so far) deep connection to universe, intense extroversion, lack of rational thought, euphoria, mood swings, dry mouth, inability to chew or eat, hightened libido, gurning, need for closeness, shakiness, lack of thirst and inablity to monitor water intake worst experience - first time involved me messaging every person I knew with no filter e.g. told boy I wanted to makeout with him, told other boy he was weird and creepy comedown - EXTREME, 30 mins to an hour, high anxiety, deep regret, feelings of complete isolation and lonliness, disgust at others and self (next day often have red marks asscoaiated with thirst and increased extroversion)
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