eat my shorts (and my food)
Category: Blogging

:/ i really miss when food didn't feel like a chore. i can't explain how sh*tty it is to feel guilty after doing omething as simple a eating. it shouldn't be this hard. i always want to be more open about eds on my spam but i have too many locals on there. even when i removed so many people it's like aah i still can't say certain things. which is fine yk like,,, maybe some things are better left unsaid. like this. mia and dana are the only people who i told but i'm pretty sure the others know. thye're not dumb. my relationship with food has never been a good one. apart of me wants to get better but the other part of me is scared for the recovery. i keep reminding myself that feeling is normal and valid but this battle is already as hard as it is on my own. im just glad some people in my life can relate to it, even if they haven't told me either. so why do i feel so alone? remember how i said my friends aren't dumb? yeah i'm not either. peace.