lie
Category: Poems

this is the emptiest “i love you” i’ll ever feel. you know that you don’t have to pretend with me, right? or maybe you're as blind as you are when i say i'm hurting right after you poison me. it’s painfully obvious and i'm not sure if you're turning a blind eye in hopes of saving me or hurting me.

the thoughts about you are aroud every f***ing corner. i wish i’d never met you. i’m moody now. feeling like i should maybe run away or take what’s left of my life (would it really matter that much?) i feel like a kid who's been left alone in a park in the dead of night. i rely on you like i rely on the sun to come up every morning, even though i know there's nothing to suggest this will keep coming, i assume it will. maybe that was my downfall. 

i knew you were bleeding when we first met, and I made note of it. I wish I’d’ve written it in capital letters. then maybe we wouldn't be here now. i’ve lied for you, multiple times now, and I’m wondering if you think you’d do the same to me. i hope you're a liar, or im f***ing gone. 

i think about you a lot at night. i wish you did too but i have reason to believe i’m nowhere near the front of your mind right now. please just cut me up so i can walk away angry, and alive. because otherwise, i’m sinking like f***ing quicksand. i f***ing hate you. (that’s a lie.)

oh, the things we inadvertently do to each other.