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Current mood:  blah

honestly im probably failing some of my classes and im kinda scared if my parents find out, they might yell at me and i dont want that to happen. im trying to get back to attend online classes but its kinda hard bc i have a feeling the teacher might ask questions i dont know the answers to or make me turn on my cam I F***ING HATE THAT SO MUCH i just dont want to humiliate myself you know? i signed up in tumblr today and im kinda excited to post blogs and all that sh*t but its soo hard to code i didnt even start yet but its already stressing me out i thought it was the kind of coding that i do here on friendproject but its not its very frustrating and i really want to post a lot of things there so i guess ill just have to put up w it for now. also i heard a danganronpa audio on tik tok yesterday and i relate to it so so muchh. i forgot the characters name but they were saying "its not fair not fair not fair not fair not fair not fair not fair not fair WHY wont you forgive me? if it was you you'd forgive yourself right AWAY! what did i do wrong?" somthing liek that and O MY GOD I HAVE NEVER RELATED TO SOMETHING MORE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE i always feel like that towards my older sister bc it rly isnt fair, how come she can always give herself a pass so why cant i? but not just my sister its everyone else they can pretend they did nothing wrong but how about me? why am i not allowed to do that as well? and now that i realize it i dont think i have room to talk either i always have that mindset that you're not supposed to do it, only i can and im so sick of the fact that im such a hypocrite but isn't everyone else too? idk i feel weird now :T