Doremi

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01/02/2021 06:16 AM 

(is it too late to post a new years blog on the 2nd?)
Category: Real Life
Current mood:  chill

hey heyy :P happy new year guys!  2020 was the actual worst year ive ever lived through, and id like to think 2021 will be better by default, but I dont wanna be too hopeful :/ I've definitely given up on trying to have a real new year's resolution (my first time seriously setting goals was last year, and we all kno how that went >_>), but if I had to make one ig just... surviving? The constant threat of dying because of things out of your control rlly takes its toll after a while so... idk. I just really hope I can make it through this year. I don't really go anywhere but... still. I dunno, when the pandemic started I didn't think it'd rlly get to me or anything (and to be fair back in march we were just expecting to be in a lockdown for a couple of weeks), and I was def wrong abt that. its really weird, tbh. im not gonna lie i didnt have to change a whole lot abt my lifestyle in any serious way (outside of not being able to go to taco bell or the library at first), but it really has a way of creeping in anyway. The constant updates on the myserious new symptoms people can have, the spikes of cases anywhere and everywhere, and the governments blatant disregard for people suffering because they wanna avoid dying. It's... a lot to have running in the back of your head everyday—consciously or not—on top of all the other things you'd normally have to deal with. I pretty much failed last semester and I have to make up a ton of work now... and I actually failed the semester before that after we had to move online. Maybe that says more about me than anything. I'd like to think it's not my inability to handle things and more just... how overwhelming things are right now. If anyone else's been having problems staying productive I'd love to know because I don't think my family rlly gets it, and its rlly discouraging. sorry for getting so personal, but whatever. That kind of thing makes for the best blog posts anyway xD On a better note, I'm still watching buffy with my friend? We just started season 3 and he hates that I still dont like angel xDD but thx for reading, I hope everyone has at least a somewhat decent year? But maybe hoping for even that is pushing it xD

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Doremi

 

Jan 13th 2021 - 8:45 PM

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happy new year!! :P and wow dude tysm  ik that a lot of it is just what's going on rn, but it's so easy sometimes to forget that and blame yourself because everything just keeps going regardless of what's going on in the world and how that's making you feel. I hope we can all look back on the pandemic someday and not remember what it was like bc we made it.



Vomit Boy

 

Jan 13th 2021 - 8:04 PM

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happy late new year friend! yeah, last year was a tough one. im sorry you failed your classes, that must have been so stressful :( but i promise you're not alone! you're definitely a trooper for continuing to go, i took a leave of absence this year and am leaning towards dropping out completely because this has all been so stressful... gosh, your line "maybe that says more about me than anything" made me so sad, i promise it has nothing to do with you and says a lot more about our society and about the people around you who are supposed to be supporting you and making you feel safe and normal. you are doing amazing, and i hope this year is better for you. try not to beat yourself up so much, your productivity does not equal your worth and this moment does not define you and your work ethic and all that good stuff ♥ xo just surviving is a perfect new years resolution!


Doremi

 

Jan 3rd 2021 - 3:08 AM

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that's a rlly good idea tbh :D i have the tiniest room ever but i'll def try!
i may have spoken too soon on my resolution tho, my mom thinks she got exposed so im nervous O-o|||


Judah

 

Jan 2nd 2021 - 5:12 PM

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yea, nobody's doing their best right now... it's super understandable :/ still sux tho.

surviving is a good new years resolution!! a thing u can do is dedicate a certain space (eg a corner of your room, a part of the living room, etc) to School & Only School. Doing other stuff like putting on your shoes (even tho ur not going anywhere) helps create that separation between Home & School in the same building.


Doremi

 

Jan 2nd 2021 - 7:37 AM

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   I sure hope it is, idk if i can take another whole year of this Dx



Doremi

 

Jan 2nd 2021 - 7:33 AM

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yeah, that's what i thought too! i will say not having to worry abt commuting is really nice, like u can just show up in ur pajamas for an hour and then go back to sleep immediately. but its really hard to get anything done outside of class time bc im not in a school environment? that def helps me focus ive found, so not having it at all on top of being super stressed is the worst Dx thx, and u too! ^o^


ch00

 

Jan 2nd 2021 - 7:27 AM

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happy new year! 
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Staying productive is really hard in these weird times, my grades have been suffering because of it, so your not the only one! Its hard to focus when so much stuff is happening and everyone's constantly on edge.. I hope 2021 is easy on us ;p

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