Fxck

Honestly I hate breezing by while also doing nothing because I know I'll be super unprepared for next year. I know that when I become 15 1/2 (february of next year) I'm expected to get my drivers permit and when 16 get my drivers licence. I know that I'm expected to research colleges or higher education. But it all feels a bit too fast, I wish I were 11-13 again... caring too little on what others think and only having to worry about failing school. I know I still have almost 2 years until I'm an adult, but I only have almost 1.5 years until I graduate. Time is going too fast for me, I am just worried about entering the world before reaching an age known as adult.... but even then the title doesn't change much except giving me more freedom. At least when I'm 18 I get to choose what house I live in rather than bouncing to and fro from my dad's to my mom's house. But another truth is that I fear for my little brother, he'll still be in their home's for 2 years. So I may stay with him in order to not leave him behind, because I care about him.