Oh Damn I was gone for a while-
Category: Blogging
Current mood:  betrayed

Sorry I forgot this website existed lol anyways here's me updationg you on my life even though nobody ✨cares✨.
(Screw all the fancy editing shananigans I'm too lazy at the moment)

Alright so I lost many friends, one of them was way way ago and she told me to change back to who I was, but that's not what life is about, it's about moving on and growing and expanding your knowledge, y'know? She wanted me to change back to the depressed "quirky" girl that I was and hated, when I'm finally at a place where I am ACTUALLY happy and not pretending anymore. Everyone always told me I seemed like a really happy person but I really wasn't. I was taught to hide pain with a smile and laugh and I hate that. I've learned so much more and I know it's okay to feel down sometimes.

Then I lost another friend, my closest friend. She was always so nice and I remember dancing with her in her living room to Enya on full blast making cinnamon buns. I don't care much for the first friends as much as I do to her, she got me, y'know? We had our differences but we were like sisters, really. I still miss her but that's not really important to her anymore. Infact I still don't even know why she decided to just throw me away (I'm not trying to make her seem like a bad person in any way, she's really not.) but when we were put in a call together she was kinda nasty to me and it hurt me. She accused me of telling someone to (TW) "kill herself" which I swear with everything I have I would never ever EVER do. That hurt me and I don't know why she thinks like that. I wish I knew why she was mad at me, it was most likely a good reason because I can be awful sometimes and I was a bit tipsy that day (not like it gives me an excuse for my actions or anything). But I miss her.
She seems to be doing fine now, with the other friends I lost. I'm happy for her.

I genuinley will always care about someone no matter how much I've hurt them or they-me. It's one of my best qualities and worst. I'll check up (kinda stalk really :/ ) on their social medias and all to make sure they're doing all good and all.

Anyways I'll stop rambling on as this is already long enough haha, and I don't think anyone will see this anyways. I'll use it more as a place to rant I guess.

🎶👁️🧡  SONG OF THE WEEK: "Moonage Daydream" by David Bowie  🧡👁️🎶

P.S. It helps to listen to the song in bellbottoms, platform heels, full volume and singing, or screaming along to the lyrics;
"I'm an alligator, I'm a mama-papa coming for you.
I'm the space invader, I'll be a rock 'n' rollin' bitch for you"