diary entry 1
Category: Real Life

i think it might be nice to chronicle my daily life somewhat. is it silly to do publicly? yeah, probably. but like i mentioned yesterday, i feel like i can't say anything on web 2.0. i say something personal on twitter, tumblr, etc, and it gets immediately commodified, boiled down to funny #Relatable #RT soundbites that are entirely divorced from the context of me, my life, my feelings. i've started to hate being a consumable entity for an audience.
maybe this can be a safe place, you know?

anyway, i have a few Disorders(tm), and one of them involves chronic insomnia. last night i went to bed at 3:30 AM-ish, which is better than the previous night's 5 AM, but still not great. i was hoping to wake up earlier than yesterday, but unfortunately, my girlfriend left their phone in my room last night, their alarm went off this morning, and it woke me up after about 6 hours of sleep. it took me another hour to get back to sleep and i ended up getting out of bed at 1:30 PM.
such is the life of a chronically ill person, i guess. it doesn't matter too much; COVID-19 has made it so that i no longer have any responsibilities beyond household chores. it still makes me feel like sh*t, though.

i'm gonna try to work on gathering photos for my albums today, i think. i want to post my cat on here; he's my son and i adore him.

i'm gonna smoke tonight so hopefully i can reset my sleep schedule with that.

that's about it. maybe keeping a daily diary entry here will give me more purpose in life...