i am rambling :3

this has like become a diary now. does anyone read these? if ur reading this comment pls :D i wanna see hehe
anyways. i really hope that ill push thru and actually make it to college and not drop out.
i am too loyal 2 my comfort zone. but i need to grow!
i hope that i get to grow up and do great things n find my soulmate.
things seem so hopeless!
the only other dreamer i knew died not even a month ago.
i wonder if ill make it. i wonder what i even want 2 do!
i think that i just want 2 be happy. no matter where i am or what i end up doing. i really hope that im surrounded by the ppl i love and that they all love me just as much as i love them.
i deserve better than my past. my past sucked butts.