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Category: Real Life

hello to everyone who reads these things! im sorry i haven't updated in a while, and the few updates i have have been depressing/sappy poems no one probably understands or can decode *~* I was reading Doremi's newest blog post and they have a good point, i dont need to wait to have something exciting to talk about to write, i can just write! i remember seeing old livejournals and thinking damn you're really talking into the void and no one cares 0-0 and i used to have blogs where i'd just write everything and anything and maybe overshare, but now that im like part of this community on here and i have friends on here it makes more sense, like yeah i wanna read what yall have to write and i think you want to read what i wanna write...right? anyway, that's a bunch of rambling.

in other news ive been going to therapy for the last two months, today was officially my 8th session. These last two sessions i've been working through more of my gender stuff, my gender/sexual identities and it's been very interesting, and has given me the chance to really hash it all out. i've been kind of raised with the mindset that it's not something that really matters, that there's more important things in life than worrying about what to label your idenity as, but now that im older and an independent adult with my own Independent thoughts and beliefs, i think my mom is wrong and that maybe sometimes labels are good. and maybe it doens't even need to be considered a label and it doesnt mean that i'm trapped in a box, but it's just me figuring myself out. 

i've also been working on a bunch of different art projects lately, like this last weekend i was a part of Chalk it Up and did this beautiful sunset piece:

i didn't expect it to come out this good and i was super proud of myself! my art has grown so much the last 2 years and i am proud to say that lately i've been catching myself saying "this is one of the best things ive ever done" after i'm done with a project. 

also it's mikey way's bday and i drew this and it surprisingly got a lot of attention even tho it's just a lil sketch!

I've also been working on a bunch of kandi but maybe i'll post about that another time. 

uhh last night i got really into redoing my neocities site again! this is what it looks like so far:

i collect too many things and im going to be putting all my collection stuff on there eventually so im super excited about that. i want to make a huge archive for my music collection and probably for all my mcr/fob merch stuff. ive seen other people on neocities have a page for "shrines" which is super duper cool! 

alright so yeah, that's what's been going on with me, hopefully i'll post something again soon. until then, be kind to yourselves and party on ✌️ 

xo