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Category: Real Life
Current mood:  angry

I keep remembering on and off that in July one girl who was supposed to be my friend invited me to her graduation party since we all graduated 8th grade. And at this party, there was one girl there who hated me (let's call her Nancy), so much, and I really hated her, we don't know why cause the two of us used to be best friends, and we both didn't know the other was going because the girl whose party it was (we'll call her Mary) didn't tell either of us. So Nancy and I are trying to get along for everyones sake, including our own, and we were genuinly being nice to eachother. Well we were chilling in Mary's basement playing ping pong and Just Dance, then we decided to just talk to eachother since the only thing any of us had in common was that we knew Mary, Nancy and I didn't even know half the other people there. Well, Mary and her other friends proceeded to tell me, to my face, that I was a whore, a bitch, I'd get pregnant in the middle of high school and be forced to drop out, then die from either a drug overdose or an STD. Not to mention the direct quote "If I had to kick any one of you guys out of the friend group, it would be Tabitha, because I don't like you. We all hate you, and we don't know why we hung out with you in middle school." like... I didn't want to hang out with you guys either, I left your lunch table and hung out with my other friends, who actually like me because we have thing in common, but the rest of y'all would drag me by my hair and force me to sit with you and hang out with you. Like don't lie, we all know you hung out with me because you have a f***ing saviour complex thinking you could 'save me from myself', when there was literally nothing wrong with me. And even Nancy felt like they went too far, and the last words we ever spoke to eachother were "You're an ugly, annoying, bitch, and nobody f***ing likes you.". Also keep in mind they have no reason to believe any of the accusations they were throwing at me, because I've never done drugs, I've never done anything sexual to the scale they pushed it to, and the bitch part, I mean maybe but I asked them if I was being too harsh, or too bitchy or rude or anything because I didn't understand how to socialize with other people that weren't me and my other f***ed up friends who just find thing like that to be friendly banter, or just harmless fun. I specifically asked them to let me know if I was being problematic because I wasn't used to talking to them and I didn't know what they were really like, and they always said I never did anything wrong and, "no, you're not being a bitch, we love you just the way you are.". Then they all had they audacity to be shocked and try and call me to go back to the party when I left. Like, Mary, if you hate me so much and you think I'm a dumb whore, stop trying to bring me back to your stupid party and just let me go home so we never have to speak again. Then Mary started texting me, and I just asked her how I was a bitch since she never said anything months ago when I asked her if I was being a bitch. And she said, "well you told me that I looked like sh*t in blue, and that I couldn't wear red lipstick, and that my music sucked." like, did she forget that she asked me if I thought she looked better in Blue or Purple so I told her, "personally, I think you look better in purple, it's so much more your color. I don't really like the way you look in blue, but you can wear whatever you like." and she got pissed at me. The red lipstick thing was I just told her that I didn't think of her as a red lipstick person because I'd never seen her wear make up in the many years that I've known her. And the music, well maybe I did say it sucked, but I said it in a joking way, and sometimes as a direct response to her calling my music sh*t because "all they do is scream, how can you stand stuff like that, it's horrible, I don't know how people listen to it.". But did she also forget the numerous times I told her I'd curb anyone who bullied her for listening to K-pop, apparently she did. Anyway, sorry for a really long ass post, but I've been livid about this for a while and the only way I have to express my anger is by sharing it with other people so I don't go over to her house and try and physically fight her, because that would have a million bad outcomes.