Growing up kinda sucks
Category: Real Life
Current mood:  uncomfortable

The worst thing about growing up is realizing your family is not perfect that they can and will hurt you sometimes( not always physically or clearly). No one told me that I'd start to see something wrong with my aunt threatning to put me in a group home if I  cut myself again or that i was always told my cousin was more hurt from losing my mother than I was. Sometimes being told you ONLY have family is not right, being told that you took things too far or too close to heart is not what you need to hear in some situations. I remember being told that my birth mother would beat me if I acted the way I acted with her. So now im turning 17 in october and i cant help but feel incomplete, I cant make my own decisions, I feel overwhelmingly self-conscious despite me only going out maybe twice a month to see my friends as I started being home-schooled back in January. The scary part in all this is knowing I can't leave without losing my little brother in the process. So in conclusion growing up sucks