Is it relevant or just nostalgia?
Current mood:  nostalgic

I feel like when I live in the past
its just a vacation from the present
I know sooner or later I'll have to go back
the boat is docked and ready
the gate is calling my name through the speakers 
the planes about to leave 

but I rather fake a snow storm or die trying

we promised each other we will meet again
all these conversations we have in our head.
your eyes keep on me until the curtain falls
you wake up to your brand new world
and I'm still waiting for you to return 
leave a note before you go so I won't be tempted 

When I'm here, I find excuses to remember you
exactly the way it was when I first met you
I try to find little signs, pictures in time 
anything to keep you close.
Its been well over a decade since you were relevant
since I had any kind of chance to slip right through
but I blame it all on fate. It's easier that way.

you start to question why you even bother to try
to keep searching, to keep the little things close 
you can't let go; your not suppose to let go
Am I just missing you and the time attached?
or is there a reason your still relevant?

its hard sometimes when the fog is dense
when your life is just fine enough to live it 

I dress myself up just to see if this is the day
that my feelings for you will finally fade
in fact, I look for you in hopes you'll let me go
but each and every time, I leave feeling even more alone
even more longing, even more sure its not over

I know if the moment ever comes, I'll have to be ready
but I truly can't ever see that happening
youve had all these chances to prove it's not meant 
for you to be like every other memory that feels nostalgic 
but you're more. You feel like so much more than that. 
your like history but without the time
And I know you were never truly mine.
It doesn't make it any less authentic 

I hope the day never comes when your just nostalgia.

josie K