the world sucks :(
Category: Blogging
Current mood:  cynical

It pisses me off and hurts me to my very core of a person, when i see people hating, or LITERALLY F***ING KILLING, someone because of thier racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, etc. i've shead so many f***ing tears seeing others being mistreated. i cant imagine how they f***ing feel, to live with that systemic sh*t every. single. f***ing. day.

i just want people to love eachother and treat others with kindness. but thats not how the world works, thats not how society works, thats not how humanity works. 

i feel like its my duty and responsibility in this lifetime to help fight for change. help others as much as i can.

but i feel myself start to slip into this political hopelessness that my parents have. i dont want that. i wanna help others as much as i can. but i am only 17. i cant vote yet, i cant go out to the protests AT ALL. ive been trying to do my part by signing as much petitions as i possibly can. but i feel like im not doing sh*t. im doing WAY more than the people at my school. more than the performative activism that has taken place online by these celebrities, influencers, and people at my school. 

i f***ing wish i could just snap my fingers and fix sh*t. but i cant. i feel hopeless. 

the more i learn about the world. the more i hate it.

i hate these people at my school that live in this bubble of conservative suburbia. only blindly listening to their parents beliefs, hating and judging anyone that is different, and then hiding behind the shield of "im christian". you are literally using the lords name in vain. im christian, and i want to f***ing love and care for as many people as i can. i obviously dont listen to the bible 100%, but i dont think anyone should, its very old and its been mistranslated. i think that if you are a kind genuine person, youll go somewhere good, no matter your religious beliefs, or sexuality, or gender, or lack there of. 

i just want people to be f***ing nice. its literally not that hard. educate yourself and learn f***ing empathy twoards others.