and the funny thing is that i know i mean nothing to you.
ten years and what is there to show for it?
me building up an impenetrable dam to protect you from any drop of water that might slip through.
because if there's a leak, i am terrified i will lose you.
you have no idea what it's like living with the constant fear that anything i say or do will make you hate me.
i'm the person who puts myself into everything that i do.
i have learned to keep my heart locked in the safe i call a chest.
yeah when you wonder what went wrong, look into the mirror to find your answer.
the only time i hear how much you love me is when you smell like vodka.
wake up call: that's not how you make someone feel cared for.
next time tell it to me sober because god knows that'll be when hell freezes over.
"I think that I have had enough... I know that I have had enough of you."

 abby