"Money can't buy happiness" is literally the biggest lie I've ever been told
Literally one of my biggest upsets in life is being financially restricted. There is so much I want to do, see, and achieve in my life and I constantly hit a wall where Money is f***ing concerned. To say Money can't buy happiness is just an outright f***ing Lie. F***ing bullsh*t.
I have been unemployed basically my whole life, only ever worked ONE DAY's paid work. That's it. Nothing has come up since. Within nearly a DECADE of job searching, I have had a total of 3 f***ing interviews, a year or so's worth of work experience, and ONE job trial. In a DECADE. That is DISGUSTING. And do not even try to say I am not trying, because I am. But being a disabled person (moderate to severe hearing loss and bad eyesight) has severely hindered the type of work I can do, and employers typically make up their minds about me within the first five minutes of an interview because of this. They don't have to say that's why, that'd be discrimination, but I know...
So Money is hard to come by, I get labelled a f***ing dole bludger, a leech, this and that. I don't get to buy nice makeup, I barely get to travel and typically can't for long, I'll never get overseas, and I'll never have the money to pay for the study I want to undertake to truly get where I want to go in life. And I'll forever be living in the f***ing ghetto, in government housing.
I am almost 30 with nothing to show for myself, stuck living in the past and reminiscing on a time where achieving my dreams seemed possible, before unforeseen circumstances led to all that I had worked so hard for being ripped away from me.
I do not want to reach 40 and still be in the same boat.
I want more for myself.
But I have already lost nearly 3 decades of my life in which I have achieved NOTHING.
I wanted to leave all the Negative feelings and sh*t in the last decade, but 15 days into 2020, it's all creeping up again...