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This is just a reminder that I love Ryan Ross a lot and that he's hot.  

Winter is officially here. It's snowing again here and it's cold, after we just had a ton of snow on Sunday and classes were canceled on Monday. I haven't been in classes all week and I'm afraid of what I missed and catching back up.  Along with winter, I get migraines more often than I do in the fall, spring and summer. I get migraines from stress too, not just lack of sleep and tiredness, and weather. The winter weather, with the pressure dropping and the sun coming out suddenly sometimes, and the snow and rain, cause my migraines. And with it getting darker quicker, it doesn't help my seasonal depression and depression in general. With the sun coming out, it helps my depression somewhat, but at the same time, it causes my migraines to be worse if I have one. I can't win.  I get stress migraines too. It goes from a headache to a full blown migraine within a few hours, and the holidays always cause stress, especially with my family. Family issues and there's a ton of unnecessary drama, plus the high expectations of buying gifts and hoping the person who I got it for likes it, and then the stress of returning it if they don't, and my crazy insane aunt who causes problems for no reason, except out of jealousy and her severe own issues, which she refuses to get help for and says she's fine and doesn't need help and expects people to bow down to her and act as if everything's perfectly fine and it drives me nuts.  My family pretends everything is okay, when it obviously isn't. My extended family expects me to bow down and just pretend to like my aunt and my other brother's wife, but I refuse to pushover and just bow down to them. They both have caused serious problems and have somehow hurt me, either emotionally or not. So I refuse to bow down and pretend that they haven't done anything wrong. This is why the holidays are always stressful. But, the good news is, I've decided now that I'm not expected to buy gifts for certain people. A pro I've realized now is I'm not expected to buy gifts for people in my family I don't know well or don't wish to get gifts for. Which is fine by me. 

I was thinking about 2000s memories, and I was thinking about Warped Tour. It's crazy how it kind of just abruptly ended in 2019. Warped Tour has been around since forever and I remember seeing so many bands play. Fall Out Boy, Panic! At The Disco, My Chemical Romance, The Academy Is... Cobra Starship, Gym Class Heros, Thursday, Taking Back Sunday, The Used, Sleeping With Sirens, The Cab, Death Cab For Cutie, just to name a few. It's crazy how the years went by so fast, and we were all looking forward to Warped Tour, and we all got the announcement that Warped Tour was officially over, except three last shows in three major cities. It was sad seeing that announcement. It just means now, summer is going to be a little more boring than usual. It was sad not seeing an email for tickets to Warped Tour, and the setlist going up of who's playing that year, like we're used to seeing every summer. But I'm glad I was able to go to the last, technically official tour around the US. My brother and I went, and it was really fun to go. I miss Warped Tour now, since it's officially over, and I'm reminded of the memories I have, from going with my best friend to see our favorite bands perform, to having monster slushies, to being in huge awesome crowds and moshpits and having fun with bands playing and going with my brothers to Warped Tour. I miss Warped Tour a lot. I miss the 2000s era, it truly was a different time and I miss it now. 

fnaf ambiance....,,.,,

I can't figure out how to change my HTML to add music profile and I'm trying to remember how to do it, it's been so long since I've done it. 

you awaken and are met with an endless void. everything you've worked up to up until this moment, every happy moment, every friend you've made, is nowhere to be seen. it's all gone. the barren landscape makes you feel warm yet cold. overjoyed yet distraught. it's just one extreme after the other. you see an entity in the distance and are compelled to get closer.have you remembered to wake up?

So I'm still using FriendProject, and I swear it's like Myspace and LJ together. I wonder why it's called friendproject though? I finally figured out how to add songs to my profile, somehow.  Hopefully I can figure out how to fix that music player to get off my profile, because it's just an empty space. I'm currently listening to my music to find a song that will fit for my blog the best, hopefully I can choose one out of the many songs I have. 

noo friendproject got blocked on my school computer... :(..but itz ok!!! it makez sense y and i can alwayz use my phone or do it at home!!! ^w^but i finshed writing mah essay on paper >:D !! now i gotz 2 make a slideshow 4 it so itll b ez 2 present!!

I'm literally running on 2 hours sleep and can of monster. still have 2 assignments too do before sleeping. pray for me pls. 

hai!! 2day i feel like sharing my schedule 4 school and what i got 2 do 2day.....1. put history work on paper!!2. study 4 zoology!!!!3. color my book project if i have time!!4. probz will have math work 2 do :(...5. play dergun town w my child :)!!i might have 2 study during my english class if i get time....... cuz my test is over bird bones and i havent studied at alllll!!!!!!!!!!! teh test is 2day and 2morro my book project and history paper r due

i prefer hard liquor to wine but i admit i'll still miss your taste.once again circumstances force me to extinguish the smallest flame.(as if you're not just a cheap imitation--a second choice--a last resort when i couldn't get what i really wanted.)day in and day out i search for empty eyes, cold hands, and worthless hearts... none of them even come close to his. (then-what-the-hell-is-my-goal)because i want to be wanted and i crave your attention.because i crave any attention.watch me plunge into the rocky waters for any eyes or bodies to follow my form. "if you didn't want anyone to listen, why did you say anything at all?"well call me mr. ross because damn, sisky. on that note, i'm moving to maine. drop my name in a magazine, honey, and i'll be at your beck and call.no, i don't need voltaire to tell me that this isn't the best of all worlds.my lack of you makes it clear enough.- i want. and i don't know how to stop wanting.

So it seems I forgot how to edit HTML, and now my blog pictures are a mess. My plan to add songs to my profile from yesterday backfired.   I think I need to learn how to use HTML again.

So my friends and I are looking at our top Spotify lists, and I'm currently waiting for mine load. I'm a bit excited to see what my top songs and artists are, though I probably know what most of them are, it's still exciting.      UPDATE:   My top artists according to Spotify is   Cobra Starship Fall Out Boy Panic! At The Disco My Chemical Romance     Which isn't quite accurate. Switch Panic! with Cobra, and switch MCR with Cobra and it would be more accurate. Good try Spotify trying to order them correctly.   

hai!! this iz my day so far....i got a bad bit of coldsorez!! :(... i guezz im stressd abt my history paper but it suxxxx bc its a cluster of little onez n it hurtz when i pres on it which i cant help but do....but my burn on my knee is healing up!! i got it cuz i wasnt wearing pantz when i was working on my opossum head xD! alwayz make sure 2 b covered if ur working with hot glue cuz it hurts so baaaad!! but if u haz a little burn mustard helpz :3! i hate mustard tho Dxi still have 2 study 4 my bird bones quiz tho!! zoology iz a good class cuz its mostly studying quizlets n i actually can understand what we do!! but when we disected a piggie liek a month ago it was hard cuz i was alone on teh 2nd day and i was feelin low but the teacher helped me so i was able 2 understand where and what stuff is!! my test is 2morrow tho and i havent studied tho Dx..also star stable updated but im going 2 try and wait for next week!! i have mor sc naow and it soundz like were gonna b getting a new winter horse next week!!! i might buy teh ice unicorn horsie but idk.. but if i do i got a good name for it!!! gloryrunner is still best boy tho hes epic and is so good at racing!! i got a gold fort pinta medal with him once and so he wearz it!! i named him gloryrunner cuz hes a gold akhal teke!! he luvz racing across jorvik and is probz pretty confident!!i have my media class next hour and if i dont have anything 2 do im gonna work on my history paper!! im doing it over teh california wildfirez but hopefully wikipedia can count as 1 source but dif pages like in a book x3! it haz to be 1000-1500 wordz and i have about 850 wrote down!! ill have 2 reorganize it and probz have 2 write it down :(... but im close 2 done!! theres only like 5 ppl in my class but theyre all pretty nice so no anxiety!! but i cant read teh paper i gotta use a notecard so that is lame!!!but ive been thinking abt my feral felix fraldarius sooo much x3!! hes rabid and has fleaz and is like grr murder!! i luv fraldardydd sooooo much but i also love teh pain of felixs love 4 dimitri being one-sided cuz it just feelz sooooo real... but happiness is good 2!! teh angst hurtz but its a good hurt!! one fic was so sad it almost made meh cry bcuz it was so well written!!also i neeeed to color in my book project art but i hate coloring Dx... and for meh art class i haz to draw a building...... but itz looking good so far!!! im doing it in watercolor and for teh bright red im gonna use acrylic paint!! instead of white i used lotz of water with a little bit of red so then it lookz unique!! i have a bit i need 2 finish that iz dark so for teh windows imma use a little bit of white and might wipe some red over it :3! im not as mad at the art as i thought id be so thats an improvement!! also the pillars r gonna be white acrylic so tht it stands out!!this semester endz in a few weeks!! i haaate semester testz tho.. im so worried about failing media (even tho i bet ill just get a b or something lol) even tho itz easy-ish but i luv being in media anywayz!!!!! it feelz like it gives me a purpose to even go 2 school stuff even if i dont rlly help x3!! we do soooo much kewl stuff tho!!hopefulleh friendproject doesnt get blockt on teh school computers cuz i like it as another way 2 reward myself for finishing my work... but if it doez ill just keep reading bookz x3!! also if fp doesnt get blockt on teh computer ill try not 2 swear in my blogs so then it can stay sk00l friendleh!! but if it does i might say a swear here n there but this iz so wholesome and makez me happy so i dont think ill ever really swear!! or swear taht much :3c..thx 4 reading x3!! 

turnz out.. friendproject iznt blocked on my school computer yet!!! that meanz i can enjoy my inner scene kid when i get my work done!!!!  hopefulleh it doeznt get blockt, but if it doez ill b sad but ill understand :(... but it cant keep me from doin mah work!!! cuz thtz more important sadly....... i still gotta finish my essay tho!!!!! wish meh luck x3!!!(commentz disabled cuz im shy!!!)also english pronoun rulez r dumb.... he or she is dumb sometimez!!!!!!!!!!!! they them their rightzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:(...