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Got a big plan, this mindset maybe its rightAt the right place and right time, maybe tonightAnd the whisper or handshake sending a signWanna make out and kiss hard, wait never mindLate night, and passing, mention it flipped herBest friend, who knows saying maybe it slippedBut the slip turns to terror and a crush to lightWhen she walked in, he froze up, believe its the frightIts cute in a way, till you cannot speakAnd you leave to have a cigarette, your knees get weakAn escape is just a nod and a casual waveObsessed about it, heavy for the next two daysIt's only just a crush, it'll go awayIt's just like all the others it'll go awayOr maybe this is danger and he just don't knowYou pray it all away but it continues to growI want to hold you closeSkin pressed against me tightLie still, and close your eyes girlSo lovely, it feels so rightI want to hold you closeSoft breasts, beating heartAs I whisper in your earI want to f***ing tear you apartThen he walked up and told her, thinking that he'd passedAnd they talked and looked away a lot, doing the danceHer hand brushed up against his, she left it thereTold him how she felt and then they locked in a stareThey took a step back, thought about it, what should they do'Cause there's always repercussions when you're dating in schoolBut their lips met, and reservations started to passWhether this was just an evening or a thing that would lastEither way he wanted her and this was badHe wanted to do things to her it was making him crazyNow a little crush turned into a like And now he wants to grab her by the hair and tell herI want to hold you closeSkin pressed against me tightLie still, and close your eyes girlSo lovely, it feels so rightI want to hold you closeSoft breasts, beating heartAs I whisper in your earI want to f***ing tear you apart

This was my hypnospace Desktop UwU

I! dont know where my mouse went today! So I decided to take it easy and settle for a small doodle! He's a little guy in water!

       Omg! So I was cleaning the kitchen today, and I found all of me and Korri's wine bottles. We have like f***ing 30 bottles haha! I am so posting a picture on my profile for everyone to see. We have been drinking a lot together. It's just something we both really like to do. In fact, as I am typing this I am getting drunk lol! I just like the way it makes me feel. I feel no fear, no pain, no nothing. I am completely numb to any feelings. I give no f***s about anything. I like that feeling. I am a very sensitive person so being able to not care about anything feels really good.        I got a new wireless mouse for my computer! I am totally obsessed about it. It's cheetah print! The second I saw it I knew that I had to get it. I also got some new books and sh*t too. I plan on getting even more hopefully today. When I find a book that interests me, I tend to fly through it pretty quickly.       Last night was pretty interesting! Me and my friend got drunk and I went live and peed outside on all fours with my friend laughing her ass off. I totally sat in the pee afterwards too lol! Sh*t was so f***ing funny!        My f***ing vape didn't charge last night. That sh*t pisses me off because I mainly just vape. There is something weird going on with the charger and if I don't have my vape sitting a certain way, it won't charge my vape. I f***ing hate that sh*t! Like really? That sh*t is so annoying.       I am selling my stuff on LetGo. I really want to get rid of all of the sh*t that I don't need or want anymore. I have a crap tone of cloths. I gained weight now too and my ass no longer fits into my favorite shorts or jeans! It really sucks, but they can be replaced. It just really sucks. I want to get more booty shorts from Good Will today with my friend because god knows I need them for summer! I had to get rid of almost all of my shorts! That reminds me too, I need to go down to the basement and find all of my jeans that don't fit me and sell them as well. I will probably have to do some digging though. They shouldn't be too hard to sell sense they are big name brand clothing. I could make decent money off of them. So far people are into the shorts that I had posted, so I am sure they will be just as interested in the jeans I am going to try and sell.         I have a tone of batteries now for my camera! I am super happy about that because I have been wanting to get back into taking boss ass pictures on my camera. I used to take amazing photos of myself and edit them to the point that they looked professional. I used to pretend I was a site model back when I used to do that stuff. I have kind of always wanted to be a model. I am hot enough for it! Like, why not? I have people on facebook asking me to model for them all the time. The only reason I don't do it is because I don't trust them. I mean, I am a lot more comfortable just taking pictures on my own. I get weird and not know how to be sexy when someone else is taking the photo that I don't know. I want to appear super hot and I tend to freeze up unless no one else is around. I usually just set my camera on a timer. I have been doing that for a really long time.        I am all stocked up on sh*t that I need. I mean, I know that I have said this before, but I am literally stocked up on everything that I need now. I got everything that I can possibly get that I need. I love that feeling of having everything that you need. I don't need to really go anywhere because I have everything. I have tones of face wash, I have tones of batteries, I have tones of hair dye, Shampoo and Conditioners, eos, bras, underwear, colored pencils, deodorant, makeup, razors, makeup wipes, contact solution, the list goes on! I will not need to be running to the store any time soon. I have everything I need. All I am planning on doing now is buying stuff that I want rather than need. I want to get a tone more books and I want to get new short shorts. Hollister short shorts. 

So, a long time back, I started a black metal band, and it fell apart. So, I decided to keep it going on my own, but had other things to focus on, so it fell to the wayside. Well, I found the first track!! I got asked by some buddies to write more and finally release Tomb of the Fallen. Well, I am.The project is called And the first track I did is:                                 Check out more music from Vincent Van Ghool!Am I still doing the acoustic stuff? Yes. I just want to do some of the stuff I hadn't been able to for one reason or another. I also have sites I'll be releasing music on: (Acoustic stuff: https://www.vincentvanghool.bandcamp.com/ Black Metal stuff: https://www.theplaguebearer.bandcamp.com/releases Rap stuff: https://www.damienx.bandcamp.com/)  Keep your eyes open, because I'm gonna be working on more music.

I dont have any commentary on this! I just like bugs, so I wanted to make a model of them!holy moly that's big! Oh well!!

CW for mild goreFirst 3D project I'm posting here is a little fanart for a video game that came out today called Hypnospace Outlaw. A super fun 90's internet simulator I'm having a real good time with. This is a little buddy!Thanks!

The older I get, it seems the more I regress.Instead of getting better at 'adulting' and coping with the pressures and frustrations of day to day life, I'm getting worse.It gets harder and harder to control my temper and act 'professionally' at work when dealing with f***wits, morons and asswipes.Small trivial things that I would have been capable of dealing with 10 years ago now send me onto the verge of a meltdown.I don't get it.I need to fix myself and take control of my life but I don't know how to begin.I have thought about a career change, but that would mean more study, which is very expensive where I am.This is a huge gamble.Who knows if the career change would even help of if I would be worse off than before?I keep burying myself in escapism.Watching movies, reading books, listening to music.These are the only things that make me happy, and nobody is going to pay me to do that.How does one figure out their life?

I think today might be okay

Hai! I forgot to mention that I have a YouTube channel! It’s the same username as this and I plan on posting new videos very soon, so check it out if you want :3Thx! ♥ 

in the spirit of 20ninescene, i thought i should share this with you guys:we all know that Microsoft shut down the legandary MSN Live Messager. we were all devistated (probably anyway).well, a new server has been opened called Escargot!! There are multiple versions of MSN to choose from and it works amazingly!heres the link!!My e-mail is [email protected] if anybody wants to add me to their contact list :D

weekend was pretty, as the title may suggest, uneventfulim still way behind on that drawing challenge thing i wanted to do 4 march whateverguitar lessons went fine, i already sorta forgot whatever my instructor tried to teach me yesterday but i did get the name of the song down somewhere so i can probably remember iti didn't really do anything else over the weekend besides stay inside and be uselessits too bad too, im not really looking forward 2 going back 2 school. my friends are cool and i dont like get bullied or anything but its just kind of laborious being there and like, doing thingshealth class in particular bores the ever living F*** out of me, the whole class is just rehashed BS and i dont really like the kids i have it withi also seem to have this weird curse where a lot of times the people i like the most think i hate them, and the people i hate the most cannot physically bring themselves to stop being around me, and it tends to drive me, for lack of a better word, absolutely pigsh*t insane.i don't know why it is that way Q_Q i consider it more of a personal flaw i.e. my failure to be assertive enough, like its easy to tell annoying strangers to f*** off or just avoid them if theyre bad enough, but when they become literally anything more than just a d*ckhead or an annoying person, its hard to get them to f*** off you know? once they know your name and actively are trying to be near you, then its like..... whoops!i have issues with like, being real with these people, you see? like i usually try to make it really obvious what people or things i hate because im hyper-vigilant about who i will voluntarily allow to infest my closer circles and i want to minimize sh*tty conflicts and occasions wherein the people around me really irk me. i try to fend off having bad experiences with people i know im not going to like through attempting to intimidate or disgust them into not wanting to be near me, and it works for the most part, but then you get sh*tty whoevers that just want to get all up in your face and see you dance. i don't care about entertaining an audience. whether im a narcissist or a exhibitionist or whatever crazy sh*t i cant really get but i am more performative, i guess? and i dont mind people trying to be my friend, necessarily. but its the people that try too hard, or just don't pick up when youre not finding them cute and funny, i guess. maybe they see you as just like a zoo animal or something, that you're crazy and they think you're gonna give them a show. or they just keep trying to be your bro or something which is... unfathomably f***ing annoyingbut i find it hard because like, if these people i hate keep trying to be around me it makes me feel bad because i feel like im lying to them, because they clearly havent picked up that i hate them so they must think i want to be their friend or something. which is not true, so im like, luring them into a false sense of friendship!! oh god oh f*** but also theyre in too deep and if i tell them how i feel theyll try to guilt trip me or whine or try to turn others on me when really its not like a moral issue or something i just dont like you and i want you to stop talking to me dude...... and if i just avoid them without saying anything thats just sort of excessive and also theyll sh*t at me. also sometimes you go in thinking someone is cool but then you get to know them better and its just kind of like digging for gold in a giant trench full of human sh*ti don't know what i'm even getting at here so im just gonna go ahead and like, say what im talking about. there's this girl in my health class that just buuugs me. i got forced to work in a group with her once and now she knows my name and everything and she keeps trying to talk to me idk what to say... ive been dropping huge i mean absolutely MASSIVE cues that i dont like her but i guess she just doesn't get it? i don't know what i have to do, i mean i get the vibes that shes just screwing with me or thinks she's in for the f***ing circus, but of course im paranoid all the time and she could just be really densei dont think i need to get into why i don't like her, i probably will at some point anyway i just don't know what i have to do!! it hurtz me to have to play along like this man how do i get someone to go awayi feel like ive made it all too obvious that i don't like her already and its kind of almost baffling that she hasn't really picked it up. occasionally she'll hit me with one of those "why are you mean / why are you always angry" things like that so she recognizes that its hostile behavior but she doesn't really get the implications??? like im not. Like that im not taking out my anger on you or anything i want you to go awayits also kinda f***ed up for other reasons, like id feel bad being mean to her because she DID give me money once, and she'd probably use that as a reason as to why i shouldn't not like her. to be fair though, i only asked her because i was broke and she was the only person around, it was only a dollar because i wanted a water, and i did pay her back so id think that ends our conditional paypig pact, but idk man. also i recently found out her brother is a kid i think is cool and am kind of friends with? so i think i have to stay on good terms with her because of him v_v its all so complexive considered writing her a hate note, like a love note but for people you hate. probably excessive and i probably wont do it anyway but huuuuuuuuill end it on this. please uhhh you know people in that weird online new age hippie nice guy collective, weirdos obsessed with being consistently PG and being nice to everyone they meet and forcing the narrative that you Definitely do not have an ulterior motive: we'll stay out of each other's way yeah? but like can you PLEASE for the love of good god damn jesus nipple please just stop propagating this narrative that people that are Not Nice you know big meanie weenies :( are just doing it because theyre jaded and misunderstood and are ACTUALLY precious soft boi smol cinnamon roll must protecc that were just afraid of something. thats not a real thing. i hate to break it to you but that doesn't happen in real life. you saw it in a video game or something but people dont do that. im not some weird ass irl tsundere if i'm actually mean to you its because i dont like you LOL dont talk to me i have reasons for doing the things i do surprisingly im not pathologically made to do things like a caged dog and im not gonna turn out to be your buddy if you suck up to me and kiss ass constantly whoopsoh and i guess theres a guy in that class thats also there that just is kind of annoying but not in a particularly notable way maybe if i got to know him better id think he was less awful but IDK

mimi she/herhowdy im mimi, im a dog lover and a animation enthusiast !!! im a scene kid at heart but i dontreally look like it hehe but ykno...... 

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