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I've had enoughThis world is pushing and pulling at me;it's tearing me to shreds and there's nothing left to seeno matter how hard I try to take my life backa new wave crashes in and resets my progressI'm not sure how much longer I can take this.save me now or forever obsessbecause soon it'll all be too much for meand all that will remain are your miserable memories of what used to beit's alright.see you in another life.

Full Name:- Georgia is enough lolBirthday: - 05/04/1992Birthplace: - Wagga WaggaEye Color: - BlueHair Color: - BrownHeight: - 5'4"Weight: -  unsureRight handed or Left handed? - RightYour Heritage: - AustralianMy Worst Habit: - Overthinking and expressing my overthinking Zodiac Sign: - AriesShoe Size: - 7Pants Size: - 10Innie or Outie? - InnieParents Still Together? - NoThe Shoes You Wore Today: - Vans slides with socks like every beach bogan should on a SaturdayYour Weakness: - FoodYour Fears: - MortalityYour Perfect Pizza: - loaded with veg, spicy, garlic loaded, wood fired-I want pizza nowGoal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: - Pass my classes Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger: - I don't know?Thoughts First Waking Up: - What time is it...Your Best Physical Feature: - Eyes maybeYour Bedtime: - Whenever I feel like sleeping Your Most Missed Memory: - I don't dwell too much, I feel nostalgic about being 15 but it was honestly pretty sh*t at the time lol but i'd say being in Japan with my boyfriend, we had the best time, I often think about it and want to go backMY FAVORITES Favorite color? - YellowFood? - Pasta, pizza, vego chocolate, cake, burgers, home made bread, there's just so muchSport?- SkateboardingAnimal? - CatsIce Cream? - Ben and Jerry's seven layer barCandy? - ChocolateStore? - Wholefood store? lolSalad Dressing? - I usually just drissle lemon lolActor? - No ones really on my radar atmActress? - Same I guess? like there's lots of people I like I just don't want to pick lolSong? - Desert Song - MCRLetter? - L  Number? - I don't really have a favGum? - I stopped eating gum because it would get stuck in my teeth, my tooth is fixed now but it still grosses me outHoliday? - Halloween, even though it's pretty lame here in AusSeason? - Autumn, so now!Toothpaste Flavor? - Spearmint?Radio Station? - Triple JPerfume? - I don't often wear it but I love wearing Aesop body cream stuff it smells amazing Scent besides perfume? - Something delicious cookingFRIENDS AND LIFEWhat Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up? - Content and peacefulHow Do You Want To Die? - Peacefully and readyTurn ons: - Confidence/charisma, eyes, smile, sense of humor, nice hair, well dressed, compassionate, open minded, adventurous.Turn offs: - Rudeness, ignorance, not taking responsibility for yourself, bad hygiene, eating animals lol.Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You? - Litterally don't have them lol I mean I have distant friends that I see on social media but not people that I talk to or see regularly. Who Makes You Laugh The Most? - LiamWho Have You Known The Longest? - I mean I guess my parents lolWhen Have You Cried The Most?- When my friend took his lifeWhat Is The Best Feeling In The World? - Feeling freeWorst Feeling? - Anxiety about something out of my control Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up? - Well I adore where we live now, but I may have to move to get a job in ecology somedayIf You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be? - I wish I were more carefree, I want to be able to live more in the moment and enjoy things because my mind can really dictate the way I feel and behave and I don't often like that FINISH EACH SENTENCE What a nice - assWhere did all the - chips go?Silly, little - dingdongNever under any circumstance - eat my foodI wish - I had some cakeEveryone has a - storyI am - chillHAVE YOU EVER Been In Love?- YesBeen To Juvie?- NoMooned Someone?- No Been Rejected?- YesRan Away From Home?- Not really I said I was a couple times and just walked to the skate park lolPictured Your Crush Naked? - YesSkipped School? - YesThought About Suicide? - YesSlept Outside? - YesLaughed So Hard You Cried? - YesCried In School? - YesWanted To Be a Model? - NahCheated On Someone? - I kissed someone else when in a relationship when I was in highschool, felt terrible, confessed straight away and broke it offSeen A Dead Body? - YesDrank Alcohol? - YesEaten Sushi? - Yes only VegBeen On Stage? - YesGone Skinny Dipping? - NoShoplifted? - NoBeen Beaten Up? - YesDO YOU Swear? - Quite oftenSing Well? - NoooShower Daily? - Yeah usuallyWant To Go To College? - Yeah I am currently in 2nd yrWant To Get Married? - Yes but not in the traditional senseBelieve In Yourself? - It fluctuates Get Motion Sickness? - YesThink You Are Attractive? - Sometimes.Get Along With Your Parents? - yesLike Thunderstorms? -  Yes! but I feel bad for my kitties, they hidePlay An Instrument? - Not anymore, I used to play guitarOwn An IPOD? - Yes I still have my ipod classicPray? - NoGo To Church? - NoSleep With Stuffed Animals? - NoKeep A Journal/Diary? - Not a physical one, just tumblr and hereDance In The Rain? - I don't make a habit of it, coooold Sing In The Shower? - Nah not often THIS OR THATPepsi or Coke? - Coke. But Pepsi is a nice change, I don't often drink either thoughSingle or Group Dates? - EitherChocolate or Vanilla?- ChocolateStrawberries or Blueberries? - StrawberriesMeat or Veggies? - Veggies :)TV or Movie? - TVGuitar or Drums? - DrumsAdidas or Nike? - Don't care for eitherChinese or Mexican? - Too hardCheerios or Corn Flakes? - I don't think i've had cheeriosCake or Pie? - CakeMTV or VH1? - MTV Boxers or Briefs? - Boxer briefs CAN YOUDo The Splits? - Not anymoreWrite With Both Hands? - Yeah but one is a lot betterWhistle? - Yes but I HATE when people whistleBlow A Bubble? - YesRoll Your Tongue In A Circle? - YesCross Your Eyes? - YesWalk With Your Toes Curled? - YesTouch Your Tongue to Your Nose? - NoEat Whatever You Want And Not Worry? - Kinda but not reallyWHO WAS THE LAST PERSONYou Touched: -LiamYou Talked To On The Phone:-TobyYou Instant Messaged: - TobyYou Hugged: - Marceline You Yelled At: Probably my cats for being mischief-You Played A Sport With: - I skated a while ago? hahaTime You Laughed? - I had a mad meme scroll so only very recently lolTime You Cried? - Pops funeralMovie You Watched? - Avengers TV Show You Watched? - ShamelessFlavor Of Gum You Chewed? - None.Joke You Told?- I find jokes really awkward RIGHT AT THIS MOMENTWhere Are You? - DeskWhat Can You See Out Your Window? - It's night time, but the ocean :)Are You Listening To Music? - I have lofi chill beats on in the backgroundWhat Are You Wearing? - pj's and a big sweaterBELIEFSDo you believe there is life on other planets? - ForsurrrDo you believe in miracles? - NahMagic? - Not in the conventional sense..Love at first sight? - Attraction at first sight? sure. When I met my boyfriend for the first time I was insta drawn to him and later found out he felt the same (we were friends for a couple yrs first)God? - Not in the monotheistic sense, I believe god is life, natureGhosts? - Yes but it freaks me out because I don't understand itSanta? - SureEvolution? - Yes omgIN A BOY... Fav Eye Color: - Hazel or green, but honestly it depends because I am so in love with my boyfriends blue eyesFav Hair Color: - Dark? I dunno these are so dependant haha Short or Long Hair: - short-longish?Height: - I prefer tall, but it doesn't really matter. Liam is very tall it's pretty cool.Weight: - I tend to go for the skinny bois lol (not intentionally) but it doesn't matterBest Clothing Style: - Casually fashionable, skatewear RANDOMWhat Country Would You Most Like To Visit? - Japan againYour Good Luck Charm: - I don't have oneHow many pillows do you sleep with? - oneDo you drink milk? - No f*** cows milk, if you're talking soy or coconut, yasPerson You Hate Most: - I don't hate anyone reallyMost Outdated Phrase: - Honestly can't thinkDo you think God has a gender? - No.Where do you think we go when we die? - UnsureHow many rings until you answer the phone? - I won't answer unless it's family or Liam anyone else can leave a dang message, i'll just answer when I see itWhat is something scientists need to invent? - Well it seems as though it wouldn't matter what scientists invent or reveal because anything useful isn't taken seriously anyway looool (climate change anyone?)If you could travel into space, where would you go?I don't know I haven't been? hahaWhat is the worst weather? - cold and miserableDid you play with Barbies as a child? - Kind of, I dressed them and swapped clothes with friends (Bratz dolls mostly) but never role playedHow many grades have you failed?- I don't think i've ever failed unintentionally

I'm a bit late to the party (unless you count my MSN blog post) but I've had an idea:In spirit of 20-nine-scene, we should have a form of expression. Thus, safety pins!Here the idea:We wear safety pin in specific places of our bodies as a form of "code language" lemme explain...-pin on the collar    A pin on the collar can mean that they are simply scene / emo (you'd probably be able to tell either way but mehh)-a pin on the sleeve     A pin on the sleeve can mean that the wearer uses friendproject and would like to make new friends on it. You may also consider telling other people how this website is way better than Facebook lmao.Okay so you get the idea! Feel free to add new places to wear your pins and their meanings in the comment section (:Edit:It would be super cool if we could possibly get this outside of friendproject! So please consider spreading the word :D

       Wow do you guys have a lot to catch up on sense the last time I wrote. I just got out of jail on Monday. Me and my friend Korri had gotten caught stealing from Walmart. The cops checked the price of all of the stuff we had stolen together and it equaled five hundred and seven dollars. Because of the price of all of it together, they had to arrest us. If they had gone through and separated our stuff out it would have only been a ticket to pay. They didn't want to take the time to sort through who stole what so they just arrested us.       In the holding cell, Korri and I were in tears and hugging each other. We were terrified of being in jail. Neither one of us had a bail either so we knew we would be in there for a little while. When I went to jail the first time, I had a bail posted so that I could get out that same day. This time around, we did not have a bail. We had to stay in jail until our court date. Me and Korri were in there for close to three days.        After doing all of the finger prints, talking to doctors, and taking your mug shot, they finally took me to a jail sell. There were probably a total of eight people in that room. The room had about six bunk beds, a shower, toilet, sink, phone, small TV, and a lunch table in the middle of the room. This was going to be where I was staying for the next few days. As I walked into the room, I said hello to everyone. It was weird having all the attention on me. One of the women asked me what I was in trouble for and then pretty soon after that, we were all having conversations. I ended up meeting a girl who was around my age. Our bunk beds were right next to each other's. We both slept on the top bunk, which didn't have a railing by the way.        Most of us women got along in that room. There was just one girl in particular that no one liked and her name was Krystal. This girl just loved to hear herself talk and run her mouth. This girl kept telling everyone that it wasn't her fault that she was in there. She wouldn't own up to her mistake. She told everyone that her mother-in-law forgot to cancel something on her credit card so the rental place said that Krystal stole the car when really, Krystal just stole a rental car. This bitch had like three f***ing stomachs too.        I would have to say that the worst part about being in jail is not getting your prescription medication right away. I didn't get any of my medication until the last day I was in jail. It should be illegal to keep someone from their medications. I went through such bad withdrawal from not having any of my medication for days. I was experiencing a tone of typical symptoms when someone is going through a drug withdrawal. My hands felt clammy, my body was shaking, I was hot one minute and cold the next, I felt super weak, could not stop sweating, my poop was green and yellow, and the list goes on. It was horrible! The only time my body felt normal was when I was in the shower.        At one point, J.J. cornrowed her own hair and several of us asked her if she could do our hair and I was one of them. She did mine and it was super cute. I really want to learn how to do my hair like that. We have talked a few times now sense we have gotten out and plan to hang out this weekend. She said she would teach me how to do it like she does and a few other things I wanted to learn how to do from her. I feel like sense we were closer in age, me and J.J. bonded the most. There was one point where Krystal was attacking me about something petty and she ended up snapping on her like hard core and defending me. That Krystal girl was just really f***ing jealous of me. I was the prettiest girl there besides J.J. Me and J.J. kept talking about how when we got out of jail that we were going to get high as sh*t lol. I told her we should smoke together some time. She was totally down.        When I was in jail, I kept having to use the toilet because I had the nervous sh*ts. I have never been one to be able to use the bathroom in front of people. I can usually pee but not sh*t. Sense I have been in jail, that has all changed. I no longer care. I have seen everyone in there naked, I have seen them use the toilet, there is really no boundaries in there.        Sense this was my first time staying longer than 4 hours, I was really scared. I thought that I would end up panicking because I couldn't get any of my medication. I have severe anxiety, so this means I am extra sensitive. I really did good in there though. I am really proud of myself. I didn't freak out and panic at all. I cried a lot and moped around, but that's about it. I didn't get much sleep in there, but I was okay.        The best part of my day was talking to my boyfriend and my parents. I would call them both several times a day. It felt nice to talk to them and get reassured several times a day that you are going to be okay. Giving you hope that you will get out of jail in a few days instead of being stuck in there for a good while. I was only in jail for about three days and it felt like a week.        I always felt like I could never get clean when I was in there. I always felt disgusting and sweaty. The deodorant they gave us would make us smell worse than if we weren't wearing any deodorant. We were also given one outfit. Imagine sweating constantly in the same cloths with no deodorant. It was terrible! Most of the guards were really mean too. You would talk to them through the door for whatever reason you needed them for and they would treat you like you were scum and didn't deserve to exist. None of us were ever mean to the guards either. They would just be rude all the time for no reason at all.        On our last day there, me and Korri finally get put in the same sell together. I was getting ready to take a nap when I hear Korri say my name. I turn around and see Korri! I jump out of  bed and hug her. I had missed her so much! We had barely gotten to talk at all sense we had gotten there. Once Korri was in the same sell as me and all the lovely ladies I had grown to love, jail was getting a little easier and easier. I talked and talked and talked with Korri and it made the time go faster. Soon enough, we would also get out of jail.        I defiantly learned my lesson being in there. I really did. I don't want to ever get into trouble like that again. I really don't. It was horrible being in there. They treat you like animals. The food was the most horrible thing I have ever tasted in my life! The medication withdrawal was horrible too! I need to get my sh*t together and stop breaking the law. I don't want to ever go through that ever again. The conditions in there are horrible and so nasty. I am so happy to be home with my animals and my boyfriend again. I have really missed them. You don't realize how easy you got it until it is taken away from you. Hopefully someone is reading this and I can make a difference so that someone else doesn't have to go through what I went through. Jail is not the place that you want to be!       Today is a much better day. Kenny is giving me 100$ to go shopping again. Just completely out of the blue. He doesn't have to do that for me but he does. We have talked about marriage. When I was in jail it made me realize how much I loved him and I want to be with him. I don't want to be with anyone else other than him.        I have been trying to learn dance moves by watching the game "Just Dance" you YouTube. I want to learn the dance just to learn the dance. I always loved dancing and singing growing up. I was defiantly born to entertain. I want to also do it because dancing is a work out. That is why dancers are all skinny. It's a work out to dance. 

in the mornings I can't wake up well.I'm never cheery, or smiley or happy.forget the past tense, but I guess I fell,It's not my fault my brain doesn't work properly.I never want to face the sunlight.I never want to see my face.I don't want to have to put up a fight.I don't want this game anymore.So I'll feast on all the things I've been told not to;In hopes tomorrow I won't have to see myself in the mirrorPlease don't worry about me, for I haven't you.One day I'll be on the other side of the ground, and you'll be okay with that.

today i felt things (anger) since i was being a dummy that wasn't doing my homework and got interrupted when i was going to start doing it and i got super yelly at mouse on call and stuff and rose left before i got to that point and i can hardly remember what i did to do that cos i just get interrupted with anger memories. i think i was just being argumentative? and not doing anything with my time. i needed to gear myself up for it or whatever and it wasn't at the right time and i think i did pretty good with writing it afterwards and there wasn't a need to get as angry as i did which is unfortunate cos i made everyone around me sadhow much emotion feeling is normal? i cant super tell what im feeling most of the time unless it results in a physical sensation like that anger did i think but most of the time i cant put a face to an emotion name. apparently stress is any negative emotion thing (anger, sadness, fear) and not just emotions and situations that make you need to scream wordlessly (anxiety, fear)? i should maybe be able to know this definition inherently and i do not like that it is not inherent. i dont want to waste dad's money on trying to get me other therapist-like people in order to make me able to know if im feeling emotions properly since the psychiatrist is most likely useless for that and isnt trustworthy anyway and we dont see the gender therapist psychologist often enough to double dip on what skills he may have with this.after i was angry, i kind of ran out of energy and took either a half nap or a real nap - i dont remember if i went to sleep properly since i could still remember all of the MBMBaM episode i was listening to at the time. i think that the anger may have been a meltdown? it would have been due to a scheduling shift up that i was not used to or had full knowledge over what was happening with, and i guess it would lend more credence to a diagnosis befitting of it. but it just means im even more of a burden than before.dads coming home soon since blazing swan just ended, so i may be going back home. part of why he went up early was to save on food costs since he'd just be eating from the kitchen there and not buying new food for the actual house. i dont want to be a waste of money with my behaviours and stuff.i think theres something worrying about how i can stay up this late to write this and im planning on taking my meds tomorrow to do more homework too. all nighters with stimulants seem bad. this does not seem good. i dont know if ive actually got adhd or if i got it in post since i was hyperactive once at the psychiatrist's and she hooked me up right away. im useless without them now anyway, i can hardly do anything productive when i havent taken them. is that learned helplessness or an actual requirement or what?god i would like to not do like school or work things with my life. im not that sort of person, i dont think i could do that. i cant get myself hooked up with a job cos im autistic as hell re:that and i cant focus good enough to do anything productive in school all i need to do is get myself a plane ticket and a road trip to pick up rose and mouse and im all set for life

This, apparently, is my first blog post! -sPiNnLeS!!

So here I am, sitting on my couch drinking coke and whiskey, and updating my resume. I love my current job, and I know for a fact no one is going to pay me more for what I do than the folks I already work for, but I still need some extra loot. I've worked two jobs on and off for most of my adult life, so this isn't anything new to me. I do it for quite some time and inevitably get burnt out and quit one if not both jobs and start all over again. lol. The job I'm currently in the process of securing is a job where I basically drive around and take pictures of houses for thier insurance company. It's not awful. Especially since I love houses and I like to drive around aimlessly as is. It's flexible enough that I will be able to do it when I want to, so that's pretty exciting. Have a nice day!

Okay, so I haven't had time to hop on and update much of anything. Between work and breaking my phone I'm a little annoyed that things I've been obsessed with working on have been falling behind. Somehow I scored the next two days off of work, and Monday should grant me all sorts of alone time to sort things out. So yay there. Farewell

 h0p3 3v3ry0n3z hav1n fun!!! n stay saf3!!                  happy sm0k1ng uwu  

this might be a bit spoiler-y if you haven't read the most recent book, lost stars. :Ui've been reading forum posts from when only the preview was released and for some reason people really wanted shadowpaw to be a villain? i don't understand that. we don't need more evil shadowclan members to make it an interesting story, i'm tired of evil shadowclan cats. but on the flip-side i really think shadowpaw might be something different.like, he is obviously not getting his visions from starclan, and no other medicine cat (even ones like goosefeather) had seizures accompany their visions. my theory is that his seizures are due to these visions not being from starclan. no other medcat aside from him in lost stars has had any contact with starclan, and i think whoever is contacting shadowpaw chose a medcat apprentice for a reason... an apprentice wouldn't know the difference between starclan and whoever is contacting him now.i haven't finished AVOS, nor read tigerheart's shadow yet, but based on lost stars and the knowledge he's had these visions since birth... when starclan was able to be regularly contacted, puddleshine probably saw him as a prodigy and took him as his apprentice, but it was never starclan contacting him in the first place. i feel like shadowpaw wants to be the best medcat he can be, but whoever is talking to him in lost stars is actively sabotaging that. 

sealing your stupid fatewith a broken fence gateisn't it what you had planned?buying this isolated block of landwhere everyone lives farcareless to who you areand no one wants to stay after all you chose to hide away

My f***ing adorable a**hole dog bit my best freind today and I'm devistated. To be fair, she's been pushing his boundries because she thinks she can help him to be less agressiveShe wasn't harming him, he just wasn't ready to be pet by her yet and she went for it anyway. I hate knowing I'm going to have to put him down soon.I feel awful for her, although she says she's not done trying, and it's just a temporary setback.I love that she means well, she does just want to help, but I'm scared that this warning bite is going to turn into a full on attack next time. This whole situation just makes me incredibly sad. I got him  about 5 years ago. He wasn't even a year old and had already been through three owners. The breeders weren't particularly responsible and I was told that there's like an 80% chance that he was born from sibling dogs, and that the his grandparents were siblings from two different litters of pups.  The first home away from the breeders was completely unstable and ended up selling him via facebook to another .... also very unstable... owner who literally just left him at a freind's house.The third owner tried to keep him at first, but realized that there was no way he could keep  him and  offered to sell him to me, knowing I had been looking for a dog for a few months. I came and met him and fell in love but had to find the money for a rehoming fee. I wasn't able to find the money at the time, so after a week or two, my freind gave him to me as a birthday present.I had a roommate that was physically abusive to him. She had been my best freind for ten years, and now I'm  no longer freinds due in most part to the way she treated my dog.I have zero chance of rehoming him with his agression, and to be honest, I feel like putting him down might be the better option than putting him through yet another home, especially one he's been a part of for so many years. I really hope my freind is able to help him. I also hope like hell that her hand heals up well. I feel awful.:(Nighty night.

sKILL MEthod is an experimental music project by yours truly.Genre: Experimental, noise, drone, ambient. A few tracks use MIDI.sKILL MEthod can be found on Facebook.sKILL MEthodBandcamp.https://skillmethod.bandcamp.com/Soundcloud.https://soundcloud.com/skill-method/tracksAnd Youtube.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USikujMpY0o&list=PL1CsECV-3jHDZlBjxs5cY-XnW_q1lLUX5

For some reason I'm stuck on song names for blog post subjects. Okie. So anyway, today hasn't been anything special. Trying to hunt down an interweb side hustle lol. It's actually a pretty slow moving day, and I'm thankful for it. Getting a new bunny today, so that's good. The rescue is basically full at this point so it's time to either expand or start advertising so I can get some of these animals into good homes. I hate advertising though, because then I get more folks I have to properly vet and vetting sometimes takes forever. I also end up with influx of more animals and when I have no more space that's a problem. Also it requires talking to people, and I suck at that. Oui.Too many people around the last few days for me to dive into more indepth things that I want to write about. It puts me in a mood. Things to do. Animals and children to feed. Maybe later tonight. See ya