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Anywayssss
Im like.. Ready to leave/hj- Ik I have a good amount of friends who are about me and stuff but I only have 2 irl and 2(maybe 3) online friends who I actually trust but even with them I dont feel safe even tho I know I am
My friend said its probably a trauma response but like oh well :/ Not my fault I had sh*tty people around me growing up

If anyone wants to add me on these, yall can add me on snapchat,instagram,spacehey and tiktok.
Insta: cheetahpr1ntz_k1sses
Snap: yippeemeow
Spacehey: b4t_k1ss
tiktok: b4ts_kiss

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!

 

i finally gave in and started using friendproject! pls bear with me cus i don’t understand anything HABHABHAHBHSB ><

 

for starters, im ari, 20, and blah blah—you’ll find everything on my profile hehe!

 

anyway, let’s get to the point. mainly, im here to make connections and have a good time! feel free to reach out first, and i might follow back if you pique my interest ;)

 

im praying that i’ll find atiny on here PLLSLLLSLLSSSSSSSSSSSS!1!!!!1

 

dni: if under 18!

( also leave a comment! it would make me feel happi :3)

Hello everyone! My name is Alana Cheng! 

I love my grapic design class but I do NOT wanna make a whole music ideo

Can someone help me on how to add music to your profile?

I’ve looked on youtube but it isn’t workinggg!! T-T
SOS!!!1111!!!

So today, I’ve been wanting to talk to my friend who lives in a different country than I!
But currently they are still at school.

It’s gonna take so longgggg for them to come back! -3-

I really do miss them, It’s so boring here. But at least I didn’t have to take my exam today. I take my biology exam tmrw!
YAY!!1!!1
XP

hello kitty pickle party if u wanna waffle say wassap

Hiii! Just joined onto Friend Project!
Hopefully I use this site but idk what to blog about!

>o<

OH MY GOD!!! It’s freezing outside ... yet I would still step out for a smoke. It’s bitter, almost mocking. It’s been months since I’ve been trying to quit weed and here I am, fumbling through another failed attempt. Sometimes I think, how do people fail at quitting? Like, seriously, how?

The truth is, I can’t keep numbing myself every day. But oh, how I wish I could. It’s that quiet wish to fade, to blend into the background where no one expects anything from me, not even myself. But life isn’t a job I can quit, but I’m still here, trying.

So, here’s my plan laid out: I’ll quit—again—from today. I’ll document the chaos until the next full moon. Something about the moon feels right, cyclical, forgiving. Maybe I’ll crash and burn like usual, or maybe I’ll surprise myself.

Adult money makes everything worse, though. I could just buy coffee to replace the weed, but coffee is another trap! It’s crazy how much I rely on all these random crutches. Maybe what I really need is a hobby. Piano lessons, the gym... something productive, something grounding maybe.

The gym feels like a good start—a place with a pool, a sauna. Somewhere I can detox, physically and mentally. If I can make it to the three-month mark without weed, maybe I’ll finally see a version of myself that feels cooler and sober

ha! If there’s one thing I can hold onto, it’s the idea that trying is enough for today  
 

SOOO TODAYYY I HAD A SNOW DAY SO I GOT TO PLAY VIDEO GAMES ALLLL DAY >W

I’m kinda just here, I’m going to a library event tomorrow to see my friends, currently thinking about what to put in my lunch box,

 

 

 

 

Sant Tulsi Sahib: "External practices and formalism are worth nothing. The real sadhana [spiritual or meditation practice] is within one’s own self."

 

Maharshi Mehi Paramhans (pictured above), Philosophy of Liberation * : "One must go beyond the senses and Non-Conscious nature in order to realize the Supreme. For this reason, the outward practices of devotion are of not much use in attaining direct knowledge of the Supreme. The attainment of the state of Oneness is impossible by outer means. The state of Oneness is attained by going beyond all the realms of the nonconscious nature and by moving upward within the body. Waking and dreaming are the evidence that various states exist and can be altered."

 

"Within This Body" - Mystic Poem of Sant Tulsi Sahib of Hathras

 

Within this body

breathes the secret essence.

Within this body

beats the heart of the Vedas.

 

Within this body

shines the entire Universe,

so the saints reveal.

 

Hermits, ascetics, celibates

- all are lost

seeking Him

in endless guises.

 

Seers and sages perfectly parrot

the scriptures and holy books,

blinded by knowledge.

 

Their pilgrimage,

and fasting,

and striving

but delude

 

Despite their perfect practice,

they discover no destination.

 

Only the saints

who know the body’s heart

have attained the Ultimate, O Tulsi.

 

Realize this, and you’ve found your freedom

(while teachers trapped in tradition

know only the mirage

in the mirror).

 

* NOTE: The Philosophy of Liberation (Moksha Darshan) is a "Sar Bachan Prose" of the Tulsi Sahib branch of Santmat one might say. In other words, it serves as a central text in the same way the Sar Bachan Prose of Swami Ji Maharaj has traditionally been regarded as a key text in the various Radhasoami Satsangs.  Both of these are available for free online as texts, ebooks, and audio books!

 

Philosophy of Liberation:  https://archive.org/details/PhilosophyOfLiberationAManualOfSantMatMysticism/page/n1/mode/2up

 

Sar Bachan Prose (Dayalbagh translation): https://archive.org/details/SarBachanRadhasoamiProseDayalBaghTranslation/page/n13/mode/2up

 

 

 

 

 

Feeling pretty stressed lately, for most of my time after new years all I’ve done nothing but sitting around all day doing nothing in my room. and waking up everyday at 1pm doesn’t help either, so most of the time I’ve been watching a lot of Youtube and tv shows on netflix. I think I’m bored, I don’t know. But lately after some thinking I thought I might as well do something with the time I have, so I made a book out of a piece of string and some notebook paper I had lying around in my room. Tbh I don’t know why i just started writing a book, i think i just felt like writing some down yk? maybe tricking myself into thinking I’m doing something productive. The unemployed life sure does make you do strange things huh. I doubt anyone would see this post, so i guess this is like that book i’m writing in. And if anyone wonders what I’m writing, well I’m basically writing down an encyclopedia of everything that I know, which is mostly useless information like how to dream that one dream of falling and waking up before hitting the ground. I don’t know how I’ve learned that, but I do. But there is some semi useful stuff there like how to cook french toast, and the benefits of using a calendar.

I’ve been so bored and stressed out about everything and I don’t know why, I know it might be because I’m inside all day and not going out, but I’ve been feeling this for a good long while now. I hope tomorrow school will give me something to occupy my brain for a moment.