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Hello everyone, sorry if this account is mostly dead! I've been going through some things recently and I haven't gotten the motive to blog. I'm so sorry everyone if I've seemed dead or anything. I'll try to post more updates about how I'm doing and what I'm going through. Thank you for reading this important message and I'll try to blog again soon. Bye!!  

this is my first blog post, horray! I am finding that the community on this site is very nice, albeit small. Anyway; please message me or friend me as i am looking forward to talking to some new people!

I need friends..

Wow, jungo dodo baba hinto big man. Longos yingto baby man? Wow.

From day one, I hated FB. I always loved Myspace, everything about it! It killed me as I watched all my friends transfer over by 2010.I tried FB, tried to give it a chance, multiple times, but it was never the same. MS was light-hearted, friendly, it was not just acceptable, but normal to add and interact with new people. FB users don't welcome people they don't know, they use the site to do everything from shame others, to stalking, to selling things. It's not even 'social' anymore. More like anti-social. I miss the innocent, friendly morning greetings, exchange of sweet pictures and just the non-offense of MS. So, here I am. Hoping people will find this site, and see the Nostalgia and possibilities. :) 

without a pillit's so hard to spilli can't tell you this is how i feeleven if it truly is reali can't push myself closer to the edgei won't make it to the ledgethe water’s only risen metaphoricallythe edge isn't rhetoricallyit might be better for mebut is it really?cause in the droughtlife’s soon to be out

i hate how i lose what i love, always, through some design of my own.i hate the obsession, i hate the need for attentionand how it can't be from just anyoneit can't be from someone who loves me and wants the best for meit has to be from a boy who doesn't like meor a boy who does but really shouldn'ti hate sabotaging myself every step of the way towards something goodi hate mei hate mei hate mei hate me

i heard MCR is coming back in 2019! I really hope they do!

i want to leave this placenever look back find a new spacetake me somewherenobody knowslet my blood coollet me decomposeall i am is a waste of spaceshow me how to disappearwithout a tracehold my bodythen let it goits far too shoddyfor you to knowbroken beyond repairtearing at the walls of your mindno matter how much you careits all too late nowthank you for the thoughtdont blame yourself,its not about how we foughtbut how i tried and failedsorry that i couldn't be betternow that i cant speakplease just read my letterknow you deserve moreand forget her

i'm sixteen years old i've had the implanon in since i was 14 and my period is two weeks late for the first time since then. this alone wouldnt worry me (too much) but i've been slowly checking off each early pregnancy symptoms.i'm nauseous and cramping constantly.i literally cannot stop thinking about sushimy back hurts.my boobs feel the way they did when they were still growing.i am peeing like seabiscuit (per se)i am terrified. i love babies. i want to be a mum someday but i really dont think i can be right now.the 'father' can't be either. i went to the doctor and obviously she wanted me to pee in a cup. i couldn't, right at that moment, for some reason even though i probably produced more than five litres everyday for a solid week. so i'm bringing it in tomorrow - there's a jar of my piss on my bedside table. pray for me babies x i am aware its a 99% prevention rate on the implanon but no birth control method is foolproof...and i am booboo the fool

the green grass betrays me once again in the morningand the over head angry clouds act as my warningthough the night has come and gone, gone and comethe darkened sky has left me feeling more than numbit's so stupid how we leave our clean shoes at the doorwhen it's other household items that leave us feeling poorit's so stupid that we silence ourselves to the magnificent painwhy do we not bring our friends, that dance in the rain

1. Made out for more than 3 minutes? yes2. Slept in a different bed? yes3. Made out in a movie theatre? yes4. made out with 2 different people in one night? no5. Thought your cousin was hot? tbh yeah but just the one6. Been in love? yeah7. Slept? nope. never.8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex? yes9. Gone over the speed limit? i don't drive so no10. Painted your room? no, not myself11. Drove a car? nup12. Danced in front of your mirror? yess13. Gotten a hickey? yes14. Been dumped? yes15. Stole money from a friend? i have not16. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yep17. Been in a fist fight? yep18. Snuck out of your house? kind of? i haven't done the whole 'wait until the parents are asleep and then climb out the window' thing late at night but i've shoved myself out the window once or twice when i didnt wanna deal with them asking me questions (about where i'm going etc or if im in trouble)19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yep20. Been arrested? yes21. Made out with a stranger? nah22. Left your house with out telling your parents? yeah heaps23. Had a crush on your neighbor? no24. Ditched school to do something more fun? i ditched school in year 7 to watch daria in my underwear and cry. so, yes25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same or opposite sex ?yes26. Seen someone die? fortunately not27. Been on a plane? yes28. Kissed a picture? as a joke29. Slept in until 3? yes30. Love someone or miss someone right now? i love one person, and miss two people rn31. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yeah :) cute memories32. Made a snow angel? i've made a sand angel :( i'm australian sorry33. Played dress up? yeah34. Cheated while playing a game? yeah35. Been lonely? yeah :((36. Fallen asleep at work/school yeah, in the sick bay a number of times37. Been to a club? nope38. Felt an earthquake? no39. Touched a snake? yeah they freak the f*** out of me though40. Ran a red light? don't drive, answer is still no41. Been suspended from school? not for behavioural reasons but once i was excluded until i saw a psychiatrist42. Had detention.. no, they dont give them out frequently where i'm from43. Been in a car? yeah44. hated the way you look? who hasn't45. Witnessed a crime? i've been to a few parties, yeah. and my parents used limewire when i was a kid.46. Been lost? both literally and figuratively47. Been to the opposite side of the country? i actually haven't!48. Felt like dying from embarrassment? hell yeah49. Cried yourself to sleep? yeah :/ you gotta do what you gotta do50. Sang karaoke? hell yeah51. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? everyday bro, with that disney channel flow xP52. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? no53. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? i aint never seen a snowflake but i've eaten sand before54. Kissed in the rain? yeah :) good timess55. Sung in the shower? yeah56. Had a dream that you married someone? i think so? i forget my dreams57. played getting married? awe, yeah :')58. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no59. Ever gone to school partially nude? ...no60. Been a ? been a what61. Sat on a roof top?yeah, my first high school had playgrounds on the roof62. Didn't take a shower for a week? currently on day 8 :( i'm relapsing a bit i think63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone? i won't even watch scary commercials alone let alone an entire movie64. Played chicken? nah65. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? no, i'm not sure anyone in real life ever has66. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yeah, nice drunk girls at parties and weird creepy men on the street67. Broken a bone? no!68. Been easily amused? im frequently amused, so i suppose69. Laugh so hard you cry? yeah, it actually kinda hurts xD70. Cheated on a test? yep, went into the bathroom to look something up on a commerce exam71. Forgotten someone's name? yeah72. Blacked out from drinking? i would say i got rather close last saturday (not a humblebrag it sucked) but nah73. Played a prank on someone? yeah74. Gone to a late night movie? i don't think so i might take evie out soon75. Made love to anything not human?no wtf76. Failed a class? yeah77. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat?some plastic and rubber stuff i suppose...OHyeah. i vomited. pretty gross.78. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? at once? no79. Cheated on a girlfriend/boyfriend?kinda done stuff in grey areas :( not my proudest moment80. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? no. australian. i do however celebrate it on the sims, via 'barbeque night'81. Thrown strange objects? sure?82. Felt like someone? like someone in particular, or have i ever just felt like a worthy person?i know have felt better than i do right now, i got really close to feel worthy this year83. Thought about running away? yep84. Ran away? not seriously85. Had detention and not attend it? no86. Made parents cry? yeah87. Cried over someone? yeah88. Owned more than 5 sharpies? yeah i had like a 24 pack89. Dated someone more than once? no, don't think so90. Have a dog? i've had two! max died this year, he was a pomeranian x poodle and we miss him dearly. but we also have a cavalier x poodle called beatrix whom i love91. Own an instrument? i have a baby taylor, a ukulele and a clarinet92. Been in a band? i might be in one soon93. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no.94. Broken a cd? yeah :(95. Shot a gun? nope96. Been on myspace for more than 5 hours? i wish98. Have a major crush on someone right now? i have a little baby one i guess99. Have a religion? i've been raised catholic100. Thought about what people would say at your funeral?yeah, it's a worrying thought

Just hear me out Devilman furbies are by far the best idea I've ever had. You get a white furby and name them Ryo and then you get a black furby and you name it Akira and bam there you have it. Devilman furbies oh god I NEED devilman furbies so bad. furby ryo will have a pink supreme money gun and he'll make it rain on akira and akira will be dead as usual bc ryo took his batteries out wow

I don't need to treat you like the royalty you think you areIf others saw how you see yourself they'd think that you're real bizzareCan't you see how your own inner view needs to be shedDon't you know it's all in your head, all in your head, yeahYou're not important in the grand scheme of thingsAny effort put into you won't amount to anythingI'd like to separate you from your support net - see if you sink or swimI might be jealous now but hearing you failed would be sweeter than any hymnI think it'd be poetic, if you chose to take your lifeAlone and pathetic, too much internal strifeLooking down to the highway, in the middle of liftoffThen I'd know my old method was perfect, just my timing was offKeep yourself all holed up in the drama of the kinI'd love to see what happens when someone let's the sunlight inSure I might be partially crazy tooBut at least I could hide it from other's viewBut I'm a god to your king, does this mean anythingYou're obsessive, possessive, and kind of a d*ckEven your best fan, your datefriend, thinks you're a massive prick"Moral puritanist, no one can change your mind"And with my mem'ry of you, all you do is whine, whine, whineMaybe if you weren't here I'd not know how my true colours showBut I'd at least not have shown 'em off to everyone I knowBut I'd at least not be as lonely and have one extra true friendBut I'd at least be a good person until the very endOh yeah, what a shame, yeah, what a shameYour subpar looks ruined by the fact that you're insaneBut the fact's come through, the fact's come throughThe only use for you was so that I could meet a love that's trueDon't remember why I thought you were ever worth my timeDon't remember why I thought your face was truly fineDon't remember why I thought you deserved the crimes I did for youJust remember not remembering every little wrong thing I did to youI think it'd be poetic, if you chose to take your lifeAlone and pathetic, too much internal strifeLooking down to the highway, in the middle of liftoffThen I'd know my old method was perfect, just my timing was offKeep yourself all holed up in the drama of the kinI'd love to see what happens when someone let's the sunlight inSure I might be partially crazy tooBut at least I could hide it from other's viewBut you're a king to my god, and I know you're a hack-fraud