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i'm gonna post all of my crochet projects here, so i have a mental note of them, and so you all can see them!!This is a newer one from me, my lovely bunny Ruby!!heres a shrug i made too!! (its super soft and comfy and i'm so in love with it)a plushie i made for my aunt! (it's named Doom, like the cat from Ruby Gloom!!)

anyone here like drain gang and wanna be friendsies?! ʚ₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎ɞ

I'm beginning to think 1) I'm poor at doing this, 2) I am foolish for expressing myself. lol "beginning" IT'S been a while. I need to get hobbies, or employment, anything from this current lyfe of unending thoughts I endure ... .. . . .. Lol, I am not against vulnerability or honesty, however I will probably never partake in these again. LOol ok getting kinda incelly with it... NOT like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But there is a crushing embarrassment of having misunderstood a situation, assuming it to be shared, in reality it is one-sided. I'm fine and all is well, but I do feel this strange pit in my stomach/chest, and I think about it often. My silly emotion (crush) got the best of me guyz and I had too many thoughts, now I must experience the consequences. All is well I am good. We r ballin. I don't see myself having these feelings/thoughts again for a long while though. Not only am I suffering the embarrassment (normal feeling but still) but also I just don't think it is my thing. NOT ON PURPOSE this is nawt an incel rant guys AAAAAAAUUUUU((((( ... It was just sort of an exception and now I am back to the general rule (I just don't think I am interested in such.) I did my thing now I am chilling™Surely every1 in the world has had this experience and in no way am I, like, super sad or shutting myself down, TRULY i am chilling, but I still feel like some sort of evil freak that was super weird and unusual for being upfront and silly.This post makes no sense but it is about having a crush that you thought was shared but it is actually not and now you just process that and go on. I'm certain this is Normal. NOTHING IS EVEN WRONG i just think about it.and ontop of this, NEVERMIND i need to go to sleep right NEOW this is unnatural (03:8s)

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Im a huge nerd and also hella addicted to my phone and I really wanna change my life. I want to romanticize school, I want to have cool hobbies, and I just want to be less addicted to something that doesn't exist. I've decided that I'm gonna try my hardest to be my best self!!Romanticizing SchoolSchools boring and it sucks, but I want to enjoy it so I can get it over with and I want no stress. I've made a list of a few things I wanna do in order to be smart and gets A's and stuff:1. Work on assignments right when I get them!! I'm a huge procrastinator and I wait till the last night to do things2. Actually use my agenda. I never use it so I basically bought it for no reason but it could be so useful??3. Read more!!! Specifically books with those old looking covers, I hate when they have like weird galaxy explosions on them or whatever.4. Get really cute school supplies: cute utensils motivate me to use them so maybe I'll study moreAddictionEveryone, including me, is addicted to phones or some kind of technology. I feel like I'm a boring person sicneim always on it and never doing anything else. I mean, we have a whole world and I'm just looking at a small screen crying over something I could change.1. I'm actually gonna sleep at night *gasp* I need it omg 2. Get hobbies!!!!! I'm going to focus more on the languages I'm learning and piano and guitar. I also want to make more Kandi and get better at art

omgomgomgomgomg i just read the most amazing book everit's called "the perfect world of miwako sumida" and the author is clarissa goenawan. here's what it's about:miwako sumida has k1lled herself. ryusei, (her boyfriend), and chie, (miwako's best friend), try to find out more of the details. it's written so well omg. it's one of those books where when you're reading it, you're so focused on it that you never want to stop reading, and when you finally stop, you keep thinking about it all day. ever since i read this i can't find any books i like because none of them are as good. i also want to just say that it does contain these subjects:- su1c1de- r4pe- ab0rti0n- bullyingthank you so much for reading this, please read this book as well it is literally amazing 

i put our son on timeout that day. and he has been in timeout ever since. one day after another. i knew very early on that i could not love someone whom i was also able to hate. why would i throw up my guts behind your back and then swallow all the conflict-induced bile the moment you turned around? i'm certain you felt the same way. no number of conversations concerning cinema could erase the eventual disrespect and disagreements that eventually came around. quote me directly... and ask me to find the next way out. these were problems bigger than all the steps our shaky, two left feet could take.take the child, you told me through crackled, choppy audio. keep the monkey because he is a symbol of the love you would not be able to give me anymore. he knew our initials inscribed in a heart beneath his tail became meaningless long before you even said a word.......and you do not know the night i saw red, wondering why love had to make me feel like a charity case, begging for the tiniest bits of what "more" could be. hot tears flowing down my cheeks and dripping down my chest. screaming until all my lungs knew was YellYELLyellyellYELL and ringing your phone just to beg for an answer. squeezing your "symbol of love" with my fists until i could feel the plush disintegrate from inside because up until that point love had meant compromise (and not being in disbelief thinking i'm insane).he sits in the corner now. along with that pillow of your face i lost in the sea of trinkets and furniture inside my room. i used to wake up to reminders of you in bed and now i cannot even function properly if i am reminded with the most fleeting memory of who you once were to me.i thought i would be able to relearn to love you. i thought lying in your embrace in the grass would be like a careful, memorized dance we would still know the steps to. and i quickly realized it wasn't when i could not bring myself to kiss you, your face inches away from mine. i always used to.he is still in timeout. and i can't stare at the corner of my room for too long or else monkey will make me remember how you told me i'm helping you break the curse of groundhog day by loving you unconditionally. now we have to relive the motions of every single day pretending we never existed to each other. seeing the same sights and hearing the same sounds. again and again. over and over. except you're snipped out of the picture this time.i try and try to hate you, i try to remember the disrespect and the disregard. but i know that my heart is full, and it does not deny the fact that i once loved you. and i will always keep that love stored and preserved, even if i will not be able to experience it firsthand anymore. your flowers are still decaying on the table. your letter is still on my shelf. the book you gave me still stands alongside the other books i've never read. i can't bring myself to throw away my bracelet with your name on it. i still have our pictures, but i've hardly looked through them.i once loved you. and wishful thinking permits me to believe that fate will let me relearn how to love you again, allow me to retrace our steps and figure out where it all went wrong. because even if i once loved you like a devotee, how i feel for you is not transient. i still love you, as a lesson, because i will never be able to love you like i once did.i wish we stayed friends. i wish we kept it that way. 

i just thought of my kinda crush calling/texting me and now i have to take a nervous sh*t, bye

hi somebody be my friend ^__^ 

I wanna be like a millennial in 2006

-Open source DDR/ITG Simulator[ https://www.stepmania.com/ ]-A whole bunch of things about shoelaces, great for customizing ur shoes![ https://www.fieggen.com/shoelace/knots.htm ]-Resource to find cool kandi patterns and even make your own[ https://kandipatterns.com/ ]-Resource for rythm game controllers and goes in depth[ https://rhythm-cons.wiki/w/Main_Page ]-Revival project of geocities, web 1.0 :D[ https://neocities.org/ ]-Tool to convert maps from servers or worlds into any image in Minecraft[ https://rebane2001.com/mapartcraft/ ]-The wikepedia of arcades, Tool used to locate nearby arcades or specific arcade cabinets. community ran[ https://zenius-i-vanisher.com/v5.2/index.php ]-Page answering common homophobic comments and providing information about the LGBTQ+ community[ https://csrainbow.neocities.org/#1 ]-Make your own tierlists[ https://tiermaker.com/ ]-Guide on starting off with BMS. A simulator for Beatmania IIDX, Pop'n Music, Keyboardmania, etc.[ https://wcko87.github.io/beatoraja-english-guide/ ]-Newgrounds, needs no explanation[ https://www.newgrounds.com/ ]You guys can comment any other cool websites you might like that i didnt include

my friends who i thot were my friends dont like me... SO im looking 4 new oness! IN        OUT-me     -them-u        -??

I found a bunch of old VHS tapes in my dad's things. From the labels on them I recognzed they were old home movies that my dad had filmed when I was a very small kid. I don't even own a VHS player anymore so I sen them to a place that could convert them to digital format so I could watch them online. When I got the digitized versions sent to me I was keen to watch them, see the old memories brought to life. I wasn't exxpectng the sadness they'd make me feel.The oldest ones were filmed when I was about 2 - 3 years old, when my parents were still together. Seeing them as a happy couple, together, in the same house, made me so sad because I know that in very few years after these videos were filmed is when their marital problems started, the arguments, the mean spirited comments, the eventual divorce.Also the house itself, this was the house that they ended up losing around the time of the divorce, my dad's business started to go bad and the house got foreclosed on. My dad loved that house. It was on acreage and it was supposed to be his heaven on earh. It represented the fruits of his hard work and sanctuary from the real world after rising above his sad and abusive childhood.In the videos I am running around, playing in the acreage with the pets we had, blissfully unaware that it would soon come to an end and we would be moving into squalor. The pets that we had to give away or that vanished or died, they were alive and walking around in the videos, being petted by me. Seeing myself so young and innocent, enjoying playing with toys and genuinly enjoying being around both of my parents, who I adored at the time, it made me feel feel such sadness and depression to realize these years are well and truly gone and can never come back or be re-lived.Some of the later videos were filmed right at the time my parents were going through the divorce, so I get to hear my dad talking to his brothers, telling them about the arguments or occassionally he is just filming me playing and when I am out of earshot he would make comments to himself about his divorce was going to be finalized soon and he expected it to be the happiest day of his life. He would make disparaging remarks about my mother, talk about how he believed she had been out getting railed by an affair partner and would talk about the house was being foreclosed upon and about how he was losing everything. Of course, I was completely oblivious, just a small kid, concerned with school friends, toys, etc, no concept of the real world.I wished they could have stayed together and loved one another.I wish I could go back in time. 

may or may not play video games with my school friends. watching markiplier 

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