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Things currently happening: Olive Garden interview in 15 hours, reject earnest emotions/sentiments, embrace the Super Salad.I had a great weekend, I saw my great friends, and visited my hometown, which I have returned to once again to visit my mom temporarily because I am afraid at my city apartment. We went the restaurant in my town, and then to the park. I had a lot of fun swinging on the swings and shouting emo music with my friend, then spinning around on this really weird... thing? like, you sit on it, in these weird spots, and someone spins it, and there's not much barrier to prevent you from falling so you kinda just have to ball. Next day, I feel bad I don't remember it all, ohhh yeah I went and quickly visited some1 else- that was alright, then we got some food at the curling rink in the town over. Burger and a beer cuz im #BASED but i felt bad cuz it was the last burger so my friend had to get something else cringe even tho they were hungry. I feel bad. I'm gonna make it up to everyone. We all roughly come from the same place, just a group of small towns, it is all familiar. So it was good for all of us (one friend still lives around there rn actually AHHHH) We went swimming later that day and it was CRAYZ cuz i havent swam in sooo long. Lowkey the pool itself sucked sm but I still had fun. I can't swim well. And I embarrassed myself a lot.  MANY SUCH CASES!!!!!!! Sleepover after and I played M.A.S.H. w friend and lowkey my result was so lame which is sad cuz it couldve been so funny.And last day... ohohoh..... SAINT PATRICKS DAY YUP!  Got ready all day, thrifted a bit, we stopped at the organic food store for friend's (BECK REFERENCE) protein bars~ . then we went to a pub. I REALLY liked it in there. It was awesome. 10/10 would go back, maybe sometime soon. It's hard cuz only 1 friend lives in the city and the rest are 1hr away in said hometowns. So making plans is KINDA hard, but they go to university nearby so it works out like that sometimes. I enjoy sneaking into their classes HEHEHEehehhehhehee................... After the pub endeavours I was pretty drunk cuz i had quite a lot of alcohol, BUT i wasnt sick or unable to stand or anything, i was chillin. When I get drunk I just listen to music and sing and be a bit silly. It's pretty annoying but at least i don't get angry or super sad or something. I'm just silly. I value this because I hate sad and angry drunk ppl. Why cant we just sing along to the music bruh. but thankfully my friends r pretty epic. 2 of em left so early which was SOOOOO SAD and unplanned and random so then just me and Beck were there, felt bad cuz I was #drunk and he was sober. this is so unfortunate.... shoutout beck though thank you for everythin!I have an interview at OLIVE GARDEN tomorrow (today) at 3:15pm, that's SCARY but I kinda am not nervous at all so I think it'll be good. I'm chillin. But I need to read up fr. Idk anything abt Olive Garden besides i LUV pasta. I hope I can get hired because I REALLY need a job. My life is so boring and unending. And Im BROKE. Like actually.Hopefully I'll be able to move in w my friend sooner than later. I'll have to break my lease but that's ok. No dollar amount is worth more than the debilitating anxiety and fear I feel in there. Many such cases. I've been a little bit sad in the meantimes: I'm a pro fumbler and I think I will just DIE about it. It's not a secret, everyone knows.; I'm a creep im  a weirdo what the hell am i doiI'm an idiot and it doesn't help that my friends keep giving me confusing information.. how do I recover and be normal when I am told to hold out? be for real..... im dying IT SUUUUUUUCKS! i wish i could say anything about it but I already messed up. the futile efforts of a crush THE GREAT ROMANCES OF THE 20TH CENTURY AHHH SEPTEMBER NEVER GETS THIS COLD WHERE I COME FROM AND YOU KNOWWW IM NOT ONE FOR COMPLAININGGGGGG and he could read this... whats up chat. Im a freak im  a weirdo please let me have this outlet here cuz I am too afraid of anywhere else. Notes app is NOT a safe space last time I checked . coughing. wheezing and dry heavingOlive Garden tmrw.......... After the interview I'm just gonna sit down and start ordering everything like YuUP I look forward to getting to know yall over the course of this evening... Waiter.. that tablet you're taking my order on... Can I play with it?Do you guys think that's a good idea!?!?!?!?:3

Sometimes I just sit here Listening to the sound of the fan Wondering what the f*** happened to the little child I used to be. I just want to go home. But... Where is home?

the stars look lovely reflecting off your tearslike my own selfish poolfilled with all your fearslie down herei'll kiss them awaydear Sapphire Blue,sing me okaythe way your straw haircatches the lightstreaming from florecentsglowing exrtaordinary bright i wish i could tell"i think of you everyday"but youre a world from meso, until then, Opal Grey

I'm so f***ing tired. people are so vanilla and can't take jokes. Like when a place thats supposed to be a place to relax and be a safe space doesn't become a safe space anymore what do you do?I'm giving up for now I guessAlways a moose,Kailey

I want to try Dreamwidth, in case something happens to Blogger and stuff, so I want to try out sites that are kind of like Livejournal, and no I won't use Timblr, Tumblr is pure trash imho.

All that TikTok has done was make more people stupid and clout obsessed and will do anything for it, so I'm glad it'll get banned one day, if it'll actually get banned though. This ban bill might affect other social media sites in the US too, but whatever tbh, TikTok is just trash that destroyed my generation's attention span, good riddance it'll be gone forever, finally people at my school will stop talking about this bs short video site. 

What is your gender? trans male What are your pronouns? he/him/his When did you first realise you were trans? Probably around 16. Did you change your name? Yes Are you out to your family? Yes Are you out to your friends? Yes What did they think of your coming out (if applicable)? My friends are amazing. Family is half/half.  Do you have trans friends? Yes Did your sexuality change when you came out? Eh, kinda. Did/do you take hormones? Yes Do you have penis envy? No Do you plan on medically transitioning? I have, about 6 years ago. Upon transitioning, did you notice a difference in the way society/the public treats you (if applicable)? Most definitely. Do you have any trans headcanons or idols? Idols are Buck Angel and Chaz Bono Who gives you the most gender envy? See above question.  Any tips for passing? Mostly be confident and don’t worry what cis people think.

People be teling me what to do and it really be pissing me off like plz let me HAVE so mcuh

Just ate a great hambunger! :) 

Current moodI'm writing a paper a paper agianst a deadline and whenever I do this song comes to mind from the musical hamilton which I highly recommend watching if you haven't already (Its free on disney plus). I've seen hamilton on boardway three times and each time it just gets better.Now when writing a paper agiasnt a deadline this song is stuck in my head almost like a soundtrack of my life.How do you write like you're running out of time? (Running out of time?)Write day and night like you're running out of time? (Running out of time?)Every day you fight, like you're running out of timeLike you're running out of timeAre you running out of time? Awwww!How do you write like tomorrow won't arrive?How do you write like you need it to survive?How do you write every second you're alive?Every second you're alive? Every second you're alive?That is me writing as I'm actively running out of time as I work agianst this deadline. The paper is supposed to be 10 pages and I've written 3. OOPS oh well. Anyways I gotta go I've  already wasted enough time looking up the lyrics to the song and writing this. Always a moose,Kailey

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The right person, the wrong timeThe right script, the wrong lineThe right poem, the wrong ryhmeand a peice of you, that was never mine.-K. Towne Jr.

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