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Im working on layout design after this would be codingthanks everyone on my FP friend lists

yeah. i might design my FP profile layout.i like interpol obstacle1 bass lines.im aiming my sound somewhere between linkin park with the bled break down tankblast. right now saving money to get my own residence. 1 kitchen somewhere around Tokyo metro with shower and bath. and continue my artwork and music activity. usually my rigs setup is down to line level basis and alter the tone using COSM at the end. i saturate gain with tubes using circuit board basis digital tone.this is how it goes. line level basis speaker sim signal flow to resonate to tweak locut and hicut equaliziation or to make my signal array with order then to COSM effects which makes the generated tones to more effective shape. this is the way i set up my rig for recording with MTR. for gig and stage performance basis i exclude COSM and use dynamics equalization with powertubes of VHT series. i bring all the signal flow down to line level basis then to altering device to shape up the tone out of poweramp equalization excluding COSM effects if im shoving it to poweramp. because it wrecks the sound if im trying to generate tone out of speaker cabs. for recording with MTR i shove COSM at the end.fender japan jaguar sunburst with single coil pickup interests me to mount rear pick up to active EMG. definately v30s.

I don't care what your color is,I don't care who you screw.I don't care if your Christian, Muslim, Hindu or a Jew.The only thing I care about, and all that I expect,Is that you treat your fellow human beings with respect.

Sherbert has hurt his foot. He severed a tendon in his foot and he might be lame for the rest of his life. He had to have 3 layers of stitches, my poor baby. He seems okay at the moment but I don't know when the anaesthetic will wear off..He can't go out for two months and he can't walk properly or move his toes or foot. It's horrible, they think he fell on glass or something. I'm really upset about it.

Tired :3

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i've spilled ink i've made mistakesi've ran my mouthmy eyes, made my own heart and head achenot anymorenot for youonly tonightonly one more timeyou're a ray of sunshine on a grey day...that reflects directly into a magnifier and sets the whole forest on fireyou're beautifully destructive, cute but oh i hate you soyou used to be the person i despised the mostshut me up when i'm having funmake me ashamed of who i amvicious on the insidepresented with careyou've taught me to see past youand all i see is broken broken that doesn't want to be fixedbroken that wants to cut and break everything out of sheer rageand well, for someone who spends their time wallowing in self-pity, i guess it's hypocritical of me to saybut you know what, i'm gonna say itstop it stop making everything about youthe world doesn't spin to make you dizzythis guy didn't go out of his way to ruin your lifethis teacher didn't change the rules to make you failown up to your mistakesi know your life sucks but dude you're making it impossible for it not to.

I had a pretty bad day yesterday.The rest of the week was alright enough but yesterday, I had what was quite possibly the longest panic episode I've had - it lasted around two hours. I'm exhausted even after getting nine hours' sleep last night.I just want this to be over tbh

Wassupp? First blog post, 'ey.

Last night, Kenny came home and told me he wanted me to stay the night at my parents house. I don't really understand why. He told me it was because he wanted time to himself, but I was planning on working last night and would have been out of his hair. I kinda took offense to this because I never acted like that towards him. I ended up hanging out with my friend Korri and drinking wine. We hung out for hours. I'm surprised at how well I slept here. Lately my anxiety has been horrible at night. It makes no sense to me sometimes. When I'm sleeping in my own room at my parents house I sleep really well, but when I sleep at Kenny's house, I don't sleep as good. I know it's going to take some adjusting for me to feel completely comfortable and safe there. Eventually I will get comfortable and not constantly ruminate. That could also be my problem. I haven't been telling myself to stop ruminating like I did before. I had to constantly remind myself not to do that so I wouldn't freak myself out. I get the most anxiety at night time. I think that is because I would have sleep paralysis happen to me and it scared the sh*t out of me. My mom said I used to have night terrors when I was a child. That could be it too but whatever it was it freaked me the f*** out. It's very frustrating sometimes because I won't have a single worry in the world, and then all of the sudden out of nowhere my anxiety sneaks up on me again. I just wish that it would totally go away and never bother me again. I just want to be able to go to sleep without any anxiety. I should probably leave to go back to the house so that I can spend some time with my cat. Even though I was offended when Kenny said he wanted some alone time, it was kinda nice sleeping here. It turned out to be good for me. I slept really well last night. Probably because my mom was home this time around and I felt really safe. Sometimes when I am at Kenny's house and I have anxiety at night, I have to think of my mom to try and calm myself down. I don't understand why this is, but it works. Well, for the most part. I got to hang out with one of my friends though and have girl time. That was really nice. I enjoyed spending time with Korri. We even talked about that argument that we had had a few months ago and we squashed it. When I go over to Kenny's I'm probably going to read another chapter in my book. I love reading. Reading relaxes me and I feel like I accomplish something big whenever I finish a new book. I think I am going to start making daily goals for myself. Theres this other website similar to this one and facebook mixed together and I might use that website to set myself some goals to reach at the end of each week. It would be lovely to reach those goals! F*** it! I am going to do it! Well, it's about time for me to leave and head over to the house. I want to play sims for awhile and read a book. Time for me to pack my sh*t and head back over. I'm getting kinda bored here. I'm not used to be here alone with no one around. It's super lonely feeling. Talk to you later!

It has been a while since, I was with someone special. I kinda forgot how it feels to kiss and hold someone special in life, I feel as if I might not remember what it feels to be loved again. I know I done wrong in my past, and i regret the actions and decisions I made in life. At times, I wonder if there is something in life I was able to do to change the actions that hurt so many. When I was younger I hurt all that ever cared, and loved me. I and burned all the bridges that I crossed. After a while I learned and regret how my life was, and became more with god and trying to make changes through time. Changes are never easy or comes over night, it is something we all must learn to live with. To forgive our own thoughts and actions, is part of it. Even though it's also good to ask for someone to forgive you. You must be able to understand, and admit to the decisions that lead to the life that you ended up with. I am lonely and feeling as if I may never find, someone to care for and love. What hurts me the most, is I see now that I might end up alone. That is why we all must learn and open our eyes, before it's to late. Because once it is, to late. That is when you start to notice, that you might never know the feeling of having someone special in life. That is when you forget the feeling of feeling, someone special holding you and kissing you and all the great things to come. If you don't believe me than, why have I forgotten what love and caring feels like? Why do I feel this pain, where someone special should be? I know because it happen to me.

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My favorite lyric of all time is Taco's, "Don't you, dare wake me up," from After Eight's 'Livin' in My Dreamworld.'Life is so good to me. In the good times, and in the bad times, it's so good.If it's a dream, I'll take it.And then there ARE days not so good... and if it's a dream, at least it won't go past beyond a moment... just like a nightmare.Currently listening to: Livin' in My Dreamworld - Taco

I wish, I had someone special in life. I am tired of being lonely, and alone. I can't remember the last time, I had someone special in life. I kinda forgot, what it felt to kiss and hold someone special in life. It's hurting me so bad, That I have the feeling, that I might never find her. I know I done so much wrong in my past, and I admit it I do regret it. But I don't regret most things I done, because over time. A few things did come my way that are worth hanging on to, but what never came my way is someone I can spend my life with, and make a future with. Sometimes I do wish, I am able to undo everything I ever done wrong, but at the same time I learned to live with the decisions that hurt me over time. At least I am honest now, that I am hurting over not having someone special in life. I hope I am able to find her soon, and be able to spend time with her