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So, things are not going well at work. In addition to excessively long hours, my boss is finding fault with everything i do and has put me on my last warning. Basically I'm so close to being fired its not funny.I hate my boss so much, I have never experienced such a raw feeling of hatred like this in my life. An actual physical feeling of nausea and contempt overwhelms my senses everytime i interact with him. When i need to cheer myself up, i do so by fantasising about him dieing in various painful ways. Im going to make s voodoo doll of him just to abuse purely for the cathartic feelings i will get from doing so.I know this is unhealthy and bad for my overall wellbeing. I need to get skills, increase my employabikity, but i am not sure how. If anyone has any suggestions, i would like to hear from you.

Tbh, f*** depression; little bitch makes me hate myself. I was finally having a good week and BOOM this little bitch sneaks up on me and makes me want to kill myself. Wtf.

I was a big user of MySpace back in 2006-2009 and I was sad to see it go when Facebook took over and dominated the social media world. As much as I enjoy Facebook, I've found myself missing MySpace where I could customize my profile to make it more personalized and how I could have songs playing on the page as well. I heard of FriendProject from someone on YouTube and I thought I'd go and see what it was like and BAM, it was like nostagia train hit me big time and I almost started crying because I had missed MySpace so much lol!I also miss all the blogging I did on MySpace and I was pissed when they deleted all the blogs when they killed off the old website because I had years worth of blogging on there from trips to different countries and things I did in my everyday life. So I'm gonna try to resume blogging on here and keep people up to date, whoever wants to read these blogs.But for now, hello FriendProject, you are like the twin of my long lost friend and it feels so good to be back in a familiar environment and layout that I've been missing all these years! :)

Cast adrift on violent sea.   Yet still I'm trapped and cant be free.  Stuck upon a leaking boat.   Struggling hard to keep afloat.  Try in vain to plug the holes.   Substitutes for other souls.   Pointless hobbies, silly games.    Cast the finger, place the blame.  Now admit, upon reflection.  With humankind, no connection.  Too late now, I can't be saved.   The time has come, embrace the waves.

warm light          i love the way it dances in your eyes          just inches away          from mine          just a few seconds          delay          we share the same frame                         how preciousand metal          passing synonyms and laughter          the most wonderful sound          to me          just inches away          inbound          holding incoming signals                          not handsold machinery, elementary metaphors          like a child watching a movie          falling in love with a star          my fingers brush the projection          and i feel your –                                                              dust in the air.and i love the wayi think the ash smells on your fingertips.

whats wrong with me?I'm becoming obsessed,with who ill soon be.and all i am is stressed.and im so far away,i cant hear you shouting,but please, stay. for more than ever i am doubting.i know im me,and thats not enoughand thats all ill ever be. 

this website is f*kin awesome! I wish that moar ppl new abowt it :3

Oh not again,The lies still burn a vision we so desperately needed!Oh, sweet depravity!(Carved into my throat!)Pray for a new day worth living to see.Holding on to the truth,While others burn it away,Life is all but paradise,For the awakened.But yet I stand in the rain,Ready for the storm. (Even if the tides wash away the pain,Who can say they were here at all?Eyes witness occurrences,But who would ever listen to a broken spirit?)

TELL US ABOUT YOURSELF (Stole this from Rebecca!)name: Dmitri nickname: Dee, Mitri how old are you: 19!zodiac sign: Ariescurrent location: My bedddeye color: Brownhair color: Black&Bluehair type: Shortheight: 5'3"!your heritage: French?what's your middle name: Orpheusshoe's you wore today: None!your weakness: Please don't touch my belly button >.>your fear: Kniveshave you ever ridden a mechanical bull:  Yesdo you want to: Never againgoal you would like to achieve this year: Get a carfirst thought when you wake up: Mai bfbest physical feature: Eyeswho is your bestest friend: My BFFFL (boy friend forever for life), Meko!when is your bedtime: LOLyour most cherished memory: I went to the movies w. my bf!! It was our first date.I bought him sum squishies.pepsi or coke: Cokemc donalds or burgerking: Macdonalsingle or group dates: Singlewhat is the last song you sang: Feel Good Inc. does playing the guitar make a girl/guy more attractive: Dependswhat is your biggest pet peeve: Ppl who judge you but then u cant judge them cuz they get mad =_=do you drink: Nopeever been drunk: Yes... do you smoke: Sometimesdo you "SMOKE": JKLDELKFAEJRGKG... weed killsdo you sing: A lotwhat color underwear do you have on: uh. none....do you want to go to college: Not rlly but I have to soonhave you ever been in love: YES!!!!do you want to get married: YEAH!!!!!!!!!do you believe in yourself: Hell no do you believe in others: Sometimes do you like thunderstorms: Yes but sometimes they scare me do you play an instrument: Trompetwhat do you want to be when you grow up: I wanna be an art teacher what country would you like to visit: Japan or Francehow many CD's do you own: Oof.... Over 40!!how many DVD's do you own: Like 9how many tattoo's do you have: Zero! But I want one how many piercings do yo have: My ears onlyhow many things in the past do you regret: A LOT A LOT A LOT A LOT AL OTFAVORITESshoes: Bootsradio station: I dont listen to the radio! My fav. CD is OK COMPUTERdrink: Milkkkkcar: God any that I could own tbh ;(place: My bf's roomsong: Sugar Boats by Modest Mousemovie: Scott Pilgrimmoment: I said "Hey Siri" when me n my bf were goin to bed n my phone heard me from across the room and me and my bf got scared a little color: Greenmeal: Chicken Alfredo bbyIN A GUY/GIRLfavorite eye color: Blue or Greenfavorite hair color: Brownshort or long hair: Shortheight: Shorter than mebody type: Doesnt matter!does ethnicity matter: HELL NO MANpiercings: Awwww yeah tattoos: AWWWWWWWWWW YEAHBED SIDE MANORdo you think you are attractive: NOPEare you attracted to someone who does not know it: Nowould you like to be someones fantasy: ;) Mekohunter or hunted: The what? Top or bottle.do you kiss with your eyes closed or open: Closed but sometimes I keep them open bc I like lookin @ Mekoa little or a lot of tongue: Not a fan older or younger: No preference just... no gap larger than 3 years?lights on/lights off or candle light: CANDLE! LIGHT! do you like to cuddle after: Ya.do you like to cuddle in general: YisRIGHT NOWwhat is todays date: May 21 2018what time is it: 10:22 PMwho are you thinking of: Mekowhat are you listening to: Step by Vampire Weekenddo you love someone: YESSS I LOVE MEKO I LOVE MEKO!!!!do you know where your mechanical bull is: What the f*** is this questiondoes someone love you: Meko!is it raining: I wish it was like... pouring Id go stand out in tha rain n run aroundhow many myspace friends do you have: 14are you happy: Not really. Lifes like tht tho!

We're on the roof of that abandoned asylum tonight. We decided to go there because we love abandoned places and it's pretty creepy, and that sure does suit our aesthetic. Despite the chilly weather and slight wind, we aren't wearing jackets. A blessing for me since your muscular arms are quite a nice show. Ofcourse I've never told you, but although your tattoos are beautiful and make you hotter than the average guy, they aren't the only interesting thing about your body. As you give me your hand for me to hold while stepping over water and slippy grounds, I almost trip. You laugh and it resonates in the wind and slightly in my head. Your long black hair looks majestic in the wind and I can't help but laugh too while I reach for your hair. It looks soft, and knowing already what I want, you move your hair out of your face to one side so I could reach it easily. Your teeth don't show anymore but you still have a slight smile on your lips. You seem content as I play with your hair. Our hands are still holding and you don't seem to notice, but my heart beats faster by the minute. And I catch a glimpse of your blue eyes, that shine slightly, even in the dark like now. I've taken pictures of them before but nothing could make me as crazy for you as seeing them looking back at me. A gentle breeze roams through the sky and hides the moon behind clouds as I shiver. You notice my shaking and in a gentle gesture you detach your hand from mine to take me in your arms. Maybe you did notice our hands were holding but didn't want to let go? "Are you cold? Is this better, is it alright?" You softly ask me and I whisper that it is much better while your arms hold tighter onto me and I feel your warmth against my body. You're a little taller than me though, so I rest my head against your chest. Your heart seems to beat fast too? You rub my back and I hold you tighter too now, enjoying the moment and completely forgetting about the wind as I only think about you and how much I love you. Truly I don't know if you love me too, but if you do, neither of us has said anything yet. You pull slightly back and I look up to you. Our eyes lock and I admire what I can see of them, oh how I wish I could see them clearly now. But I wouldn't give up this moment for anything in the world. You smile softly at me and I smile too. Your small grin transforms into a sly smile and you keep get closer to me until your eyes drift from mine to my lips a second before our lips touch. I move my hand from your back to your neck and the kiss deepens. Everything around me disappears for a few seconds although I'm sure my brain paints the picture of us kissing on the roof of this abandoned creepy asylum. Nothing has ever felt this real before, and it seems I'm tasting my favorite dessert again after being restricted any sugar for 2 months. Soon enough - too soon - you pull back and we admire each - other's faces. Your eyes sparkle with excitment, joy and surprise. Why are you surprised, was it not obvious I am obsessed with you? You smile brightly and I smile too, and as you pull me back in a hug and kiss my forehead, I feel your heartbeat going just as fast as mine. Shortly after this we sit on the edge of the building looking at the stars, you take my hand and look at me. I look back and hear you whisper just loud enough for me to hear: "I love you." My heart seems to be exploding now, and I don't hesitate a minute to answer that I feel the same as we go in for another kiss under the cloudy sky. The stars peek through and between the clouds just to watch us living our teenage romance.

one week and counting.one hundred and eighty six hours.one million reasons not to return,and one lost life.too soon you left.to know what you were thinking, would be too much.two broken bones.should i keep going?you know the next numerals...or maybe you cant think of them.or anything at all.scary, isnt it?where are you?and are you?

Here is a list of comebacks and attacks to use in "ur mom gay" text battles.As always, these battles are traditionally started off with "ur mom gay", so either you or the opponent uses that for Round 1.[NOTE: IF IT IS TIME-SENSITIVE AND YOU BLANK, YOU MAY USE "no u"][A medieval variation is "your mother art homosexual" & "nay thee"]------Round 2 recommendations: "ur dad lesbian", "ur granny tranny", "ur grandpap a trap", "your aunt croissant"Round 3 recommendations: "ur bro a ho", "ur sis a cis", "ur sister a mister", "your brother mother"Round 4 recommendations: "ur rubber ducky give sucky", "ur uncle nick got no d*ck", "ur fish a big bish"Round 5 recommendations: "ur family tree lgbt", "ur family reunion a homosexual communion"Most powerful phrase currently discovered: "ur pledge of allegiance and star spangled speeches a hedge of queer sieges and dudes without penis" [extra attack bonus against USA residents]

I work over 10 hours a day for this jackass, its still not enough. Constant snapping at me, yelling at me, talking to me like a child. F*** the boss, f*** the client, f*** the world.

I can't explain the way it feels,To look in the mirror and see nothing.To live and breathe without direction.Over and over again.And how do I put into words,The way it burns to know who I am?This dream seems miles away,(Will I find it?)Probably not today,(At least I'm trying)I can say that it's there,(I know it.)This dream's miles away.(Will I find it?)These gates feel a little closer,When I close my eyes.Can it give me a sense of closure?The low point rises in time.Will I embrace?Everything is falling around me,Time waits for no one,Certainly not me.How do I put into words the nothingness I am?This dream seems miles away,(Will I find it?)Probably not today,(At least I'm trying)I can say that it's there,(I know it.)This dream's miles away.(Will I find it?)These gates feel a little closer,When I close my eyes.Can it give me any sense of closure?The low point rises in time.

There's another world inside of meThat you may never seeThere are secrets in this lifeThat I can't hideSomewhere in this darknessThere's a light that I can't findMaybe it's too far awayOr maybe I'm just blindOr maybe I'm just blind...