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 Something I wrote a really really long time ago .   __________________________You'll never be alone because I'll always be here to have you. To keep you company and love you unconditionally. You'll never be alone because every time I look into your eyes,  I want to get lost in them and never return to the world again. You'll never be alone because no one has ever made me feel the way that you do. You'll never be alone because it's you.  And it's always been you.   For the years that I couldn't erase you from my mind.  For now,  when I finally have you.  It's you.  And it's always been destined to be you.  Obviously the works and universe agree with us on this one. You'll never be alone because you and I fit perfectly together. You'll never be alone because you're my escape from reality,  while at the same time being my ground and rock to keep me in reality.     You're everything. Everything.

Little girl,  don't you know,  That your words have caused a world of hurt?   Little girl,  have you found,  That you caused a drought,  made a desert?A father torn.  A brother scorned.  Little girl,  look what you've done.  With your eyes so blue,  Once filled with warmth,  Now turned to cold,  A winter storm.  And locks of gold,  Now filled with thorns,  To match the lies That you should mourn.     But you don't bat a lash,  You really don't care.  You got what you wanted,  And left them bare.  Crying wolf Should be ignored,  Crocodile tears, Shouldn't warrant reward.   But the world's not fair,  And you plunged your swordOf words and betrayal,  Your life now Abhorred.     By those who once loved you,  By those who once cared.   Your white picket fence may crumble,  When you're the most unprepared.        

Super old poem I wrote .  _______________________________You cannot crumble.  I'll hold you together.  Even if you stumble,  I'll still be here forever.  Your eyes are like oceans,  Or bright summer skies.   Your heart keeps mine in motion.  And Your hands are where mine,  beating,  lies.     Your mystifying presence,  Picks me up when I am down.  Your very life essence,  Is what's keeping me around.   That shimmer in your smile,  And your arms around my waist,  Mean I'll be happy for awhile.   For the rest of my days.     So in your saving beauty,  That you've graced me with thus far,  You've made it now my duty,  To be exactly where you are.  My heart is yours,  my head is set,  I guess someday you'll see,  That I'm saving you,  my darling.  Because you're saving me.    

Perfect hair,  a skinny waist.  A happy smile,  filled with grace.   Talents that I could never achieve.  Why do I have to be me?All these girls have different skills. They have better bodies,  and looks to kill.   They can do more than me,  they put me to shame.  But really,  I'm the one to blame.   This is my fault.  I'm the one who's insane.  So really..  I bring my own shame.                                                                     -Myself.  07/03/2018.  11:25 pm.

A gentle breeze.  The night air carried a chill,  but that chill brought Mala joy!    It meant that things were returning to how they used to be. Her clan was returning to her.   The night was calm.    There was hope.  The wind picked up,  bringing a scent to Mala that enthralled her. It was actually a mixture of scents coming from many of her kind;  Many whose scents she had come to memorize on their own,  clashing together into one scent all new,  but yet also so old that it could trigger nostalgia.  The scent of her clan.    A smile came to her lips,  and she glanced at Sala Maria,  who was smirking back at her.   Mahyu stood to their right,  looking confused,  as he hadn't had much experience as a daywalker before his night time self went dormant for all of those years. He hadn't yet memorized the scents.        But he would.        They would teach him all there is to know.  And they would keep him safe.   But right now..  they didn't have to worry about that.   The clan was near,  and the night was calm.                   All was well.     07/23/2018.  Part of my stories I've been writing since Sophomore Year.                                                         

I was tidying up today, And I found something from you. We don't talk anymore, And I didnt realize who this was from. I thought maybe the handwriting belonged to someone who is still in my life now. Or someone I had a falling out with due to lack of communication, but no. I got a pit in my stomach when I realized it was from you. Even though I know it was you, I still read it, it read "Hey, did you know That you are the most loving, caring, and amazing friend anyone could ask for? And did you know That I can always count on you to be there for me when I'm down, and no matter how upset I am, you some how always find a way to make me laugh You have never failed me. Hey, and did you know, One if my favorite things about you is how we can speak through our favorite songs, and look at eachother and read each other's minds, it's freaky, but awesome. I love how well you can understand me like no one else does. I love how you're creative, and hilarious, and you are really something else. There's no one else like you..." There's so much more to that, but I should really just stop, it ends with a thank you, and an I love you. It wasnt much more than a year ago When you had completely changed your mind. But hey, did you know, That I had some of the best times In my life with you? That my first concert was magical with a best friend like you? I couldnt have imagined a better day. And also, did you know That when you come up in conversation, I don't think badly of you? I talked with a friend that the both of us used to be friends with, and he said he doesn't either. Today my mom said she would defend you if she had to, and I would too. Oh yeah, and did you know, That someone told me you wanted to hang out with our old friend until you saw him with me. And I know you get uncomfortable around me, when you told me that we wouldnt want it to be awkward. The funny thing is, I still look at you, and I feel like I can read your mind. It's a freaky feeling, and it doesnt feel awesome. Oh, and one last thing, did you know, That it puzzles me, that apparently such a horrible, selfish person who supposedly doesnt actually care about anyone, Smiles at her old best friend in the hallway,even though she her tore her apart, she wont even look her in the eyes, and wont give her the slightest bit of respect. I have a lot of regrets. Our friendship wasnt one of them. But I feel like if I let you back in, that would be one of my only regrets about you.

Editing.

Time away.I hope you're okay.I know you're away,Don't forget me;While you- live on.Types to take it day by day;Always been this way.And I just work on- maybe some time now; I'll be off again.You off yet?Life is a time, stretching issue.We all have life;Ohh be the best we all can be.Hope that's what they see.

tonight is about pretending that they're someone else maybe they have the same eyes but a closer look will tell you that they don't hold the same mirth please melt away my love and affections because even the summer heat couldn't dispose of what was left (whichwaseverythingtherewasbefore) i'm your favourite haunt and you don't even know it i wish you did so you could send your ghost away postcards from new york i hope you send me letters sealed with a kiss but i know you won't write let alone spare me what i've wanted for so long this is for you and him because i can't make up my mind you have the same blood anyway   loveabby

Ok so me and Tom didn't work out, it kinda died and he accused me of being a hoe(?) so yeah I'm not seeing him anymore xDI started talking to a wonderful wonderful guy :3 his name is Charlie and he's at uni in London, we've only been together a few days but I am mega gay xD I really hope that this relationship works because I really really like him..I started college and I have friends! And I'm playing music with people every day! It's so much fun doing what I love every day it makes me so happy :3I made up with an old friend and we've been talking again, which is nice. I'm fed up of beef, I never remember any of the details as to why it's even happening..Yeah I just wanted to tell you guys about Charlie tbh I'm so so happy at the moment he is the most beautiful guy I've ever laid eyes on and I'm so blessed :')

denial.the first stage of greiving.am i greaving?i dont believe it. i wont believe it.

Life is full of chaos.The strange world of society.Some false accused, in a prison they lay.Some peaceful men, in cages. This is today. Life goes in stages.Different chapters. Pray.A major issue of anyone.It's not the future.We are able to do the impossible.We as men are not invincible.But with love-We are able to extend the possible!It's more important than, you!Life is a curve ball.We feel it all.Holding ourselves true.How can I inspire?..Let's be the example.Be humble!Live simple.

Taco dreams,Ringing from the bell.Gots me smiling- like it's sunbeams.We could be legendary, like William Tell!Speaking with your grace.Me being nervous, trying to hold my sentences to be structured.Stunned by your beautiful face.My heart flutters, like a butterfly that you captured.Tidying the car.Watching your hair blow in the wind.Helping you, is always answered with "sure".Hoping I'm in her right mind.Your smile and words,Ring so true.It's like turning to the birds.Growing wings, now I can fly.Hoping to not lose you, like Waterloo.Life is the best gift.Giving me the chance to always wish and hope for the best.This life gives me a lift.Just hoping for you to be with me, for the rest.

Its a sad reality. When we are kids we are led to believe that the world is this amazing fun place, and that when we grow up its gonna be great. That we will be able to do what we want, have fun all the time and that our feelings matter.Then we grow up.We learn that our feelings mean less than jack sh*t in the real world. That, yes, there are fun things to do, but they are fleeting, and that the majority of our time is spent 'on the clock' under somebody elses rules, most often doing something we really don't enjoy just to earn the money to keep a roof over our heads.And so, in our free time, we look for our little distractions, some people watch sports, others go hiking, clubbing, etc. In the long run, how we choose to waste our time should make us happy. Very few other things will.

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